Hi. Well, it's another holiday alone. You would think I would get used to it, eh? I think the trauma of trying in the NT world makes this so hard, all those people who have hurt me having such a nice day.
Not a SINGLE acquaintance or "friend" even sent me a card or even so much as twiddled their fingers over a keyboard to send an email. And yes, I HAVE done that many times. Two years ago, it was about 25 cards I sent out and also emails. I got two rersponses. So last year, I did none because I got the picture. I wondered if anyone would remember me. No one.
So this year? F*ck it. I am not feeling sorry for myself. I just wish to GOD I HAD NEVER TRIED because now it hurts more than ever.
So you all of you who know how I am feeling and are also alone: MERRY CHRISTMAS, HAPPY HANUKKAH, KOOL KWANZAA, SUPER SATURNALIA, and hugs to you though I cannot give them
Thank you guys for being here and being supportive. Now I am going to self soothe with some colouring books.
Not a SINGLE acquaintance or "friend" even sent me a card or even so much as twiddled their fingers over a keyboard to send an email. And yes, I HAVE done that many times. Two years ago, it was about 25 cards I sent out and also emails. I got two rersponses. So last year, I did none because I got the picture. I wondered if anyone would remember me. No one.
So this year? F*ck it. I am not feeling sorry for myself. I just wish to GOD I HAD NEVER TRIED because now it hurts more than ever.
So you all of you who know how I am feeling and are also alone: MERRY CHRISTMAS, HAPPY HANUKKAH, KOOL KWANZAA, SUPER SATURNALIA, and hugs to you though I cannot give them
Thank you guys for being here and being supportive. Now I am going to self soothe with some colouring books.
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