In fact, I feel worse now, knowing that I have aspergers!
I hate the "pat on the head" feeling. And the truth is, I could quite easily just close the door and never go outside in to the world of "normal" people and just be on here, for this is where I feel: HUMAN.
It is a struggle, to be honest, when I am told: oh for goodness sake, stop taking things so literal! Or, joke, dear; hear, I said: Joke, get it now?
I am really working on the honesty. For I now know what the true meaning is and yes, I could easily blurt out the truth and truly have a tug of war going on, inside my head, desperate to say, but knowing the consequences if I do say.
My husband told me that he had something to share, but he wasn't sure if he should, because I have this awful tendency of telling the person. I must add: not a tale tale person. Things that are relatively innocent, but my husband prefers me to not say. Well, I was about to say something to the person and then thought: but if you did, then they will know your husband has been talking and that may make them feel uncomfortable and so, I stopped. But heck, it is HARD WORK.
It is hard to be told that if I keep blurting out truths (not the same as being a liar), that people will not trust me and that hurts!
Perhaps I should give an example of what I mean? Well, a friend told me or revealed to me something negative about my husband that someone else had noticed. It is pretty true actually, but I know there is no point saying this to my husband, for he will not get the point of the actual thing, but just see everyone is against him. So you see, I keep wanting to blurt it out and have to reign myself in! So far so good though.
Oh dear, this is such hard work being an aspie lol
I hate the "pat on the head" feeling. And the truth is, I could quite easily just close the door and never go outside in to the world of "normal" people and just be on here, for this is where I feel: HUMAN.
It is a struggle, to be honest, when I am told: oh for goodness sake, stop taking things so literal! Or, joke, dear; hear, I said: Joke, get it now?
I am really working on the honesty. For I now know what the true meaning is and yes, I could easily blurt out the truth and truly have a tug of war going on, inside my head, desperate to say, but knowing the consequences if I do say.
My husband told me that he had something to share, but he wasn't sure if he should, because I have this awful tendency of telling the person. I must add: not a tale tale person. Things that are relatively innocent, but my husband prefers me to not say. Well, I was about to say something to the person and then thought: but if you did, then they will know your husband has been talking and that may make them feel uncomfortable and so, I stopped. But heck, it is HARD WORK.
It is hard to be told that if I keep blurting out truths (not the same as being a liar), that people will not trust me and that hurts!
Perhaps I should give an example of what I mean? Well, a friend told me or revealed to me something negative about my husband that someone else had noticed. It is pretty true actually, but I know there is no point saying this to my husband, for he will not get the point of the actual thing, but just see everyone is against him. So you see, I keep wanting to blurt it out and have to reign myself in! So far so good though.
Oh dear, this is such hard work being an aspie lol