...I would like anyone here, especially with this diagnosis, if you want to, to share with me in this thread, what you think makes you an "Asperger," so I can come to understand more what it means and deduce more precisely if I am one or not, or how I differ from you....
The first thing that comes to mind is that there is really no simple, single, textbook ASD. There are people on the spectrum who display a whole range of differing behaviours and experiences, and yet are all on the same spectrum. Some 'Aspies' are quite sociable, while others are anything but. Some are empathetic, some are not. Some are emotional, some are not. Some are high IQ, some are not. Some are sensitive to noise, and some are not. Some are literal, some are not. Some have clear stimming behaviours, and some do not. Some have processing problems, and some do not. And for all these and more, there are others who are somewhere in between the 'do' and 'don't' of each spectrum.
It goes on and on, and sometimes individuals can flip from 'do' to 'don't' or the other way around, depending on circumstances, because what we are is human, and humans are all different.
I, for example, am very insular. I don't like socialising, I am not outgoing at all, yet I can engage in conversation with people quite comfortably, and interact with people I know on a social level if I need to. To those I know, at least in that respect, I'd seem unlikely to be on the spectrum - in fact there would be little reason they would ever wonder.
I also have serious processing issues, such that if I am asked to explain something or describe a process or issue, I struggle to find where to begin, and then the right words to get me going. Yet, I can be called on to deliver a public speech, without a script, and will (I am told) do an excellent job of it. I am very literal, but have learned over many years that others are not, so if what someone says to me makes no literal sense, I know to try and filter it through years of interactions, to see if I can guess or deduce a non-literal meaning.Likewise, I can use non-literal phrases in conversation or interactions because I have heard them so often they are at least somewhat integrated into my use of language.
I have been told that I am very cold and calculating, yet my partner knows exactly how I feel about her, and engage emotionally with those who want that from me, because they are the only ones I let into my life, and to do that I have to engage with them emotionally. And I am only cold and calculating, because I think logically and rationally, and work by developing strategic planning as my process.
I have no empathy, for anything, unless I have experienced the exact same thing myself, but I can fake empathy by reading the emotion of others, and applying an experience that comes somewhere close. It is fake though, so I only bother for those who I think need it and that matter to me enough.
I have been described as abrupt and dismissive, but that is when I'm being told or confronted by something that I am not interested in or curious about. I have also been described as obsessive, but that is actually me being focussed on what I am doing, because that's just how I function - that I can and I do focus on something for however long it takes to get it resolved/done.
According to many, I don't listen to what others are saying to me, and I ignore things people tell me. What they don't know is that I can't differentiate their voices from all the other noises and people, and it all arrives in a big jumbled mess of sound I can't filter, so I can't hear. Yet I can hear voices from several hundred feet, and can differentiate the tiniest of sounds others seem not to be able to hear.
There are many other aspects of who I am that from the outside might appear one thing, but from the inside are part of being on my own place on the spectrum, including the tendency to trip over or stumble into things I know are there, an inability to recall anything from the last seconds or minutes, yet the ability to recall tiny details from many years ago, the routines I need to help me through every day, and the degree of anxiety it causes when routines are lost. I also have stims which look very much like rather ordinary behaviour, such as walking (albeit sometimes quickly and perhaps for miles), typing, rocking (when alone or to music), or even driving.
Because I am the only person in the world that knows how all these things combine together within me, to result in who and what I am, nobody else can necessarily see the entire picture.
And add to that the fact that I have good days and bad, that challenging days affect how I respond to external stimuli, that stress levels and anxiety affect how I can process a problem or a question into a response, and it could be very hard, I think, for anyone else to clearly read what makes me tick, and how to consistently interact with me.
To my mind, if you read what users post here and recognise yourself in a micx of others and their experiences, it is quite possibly because you are somewhere on the spectrum, and are recognising others as somewhat close to where you are in you ASD. We are, collectively, I think, sufficiently different in the way we perceive and function, that if you are being honest about yourself, it is unlikely you would feel 'at home' with us, if you really were not at home.