I am too curious for my own good. I get that urge to look up things that upset me. Or, in this case, infamous shock sites/videos. Before you ask: No. Haven't been to any except one close call back in public school.
My recent obsession is the legendary "Daisy's Destruction". If you tell me about something gruesome, I'll be interested. Where The Dead Go To Die, Cannibal Holocaust, Last House On The Left...
This is in NO way for my pleasure. I'm actually afraid of myself, my curiosity, my impulses...And I need help admitting this to Mom.
watch the updated version of last house on the left;with aaron paul-it is far better in my opinion.
as for cannibal holocaust,i felt like absolute crap when i saw the animals being killed in that [for benefit of people who have never seen it,there were exotic breeds of animal tortured and killed on screen for real despite being a fictional movie,and the maker of the film regretted making it years on],so i quickly turned it off didnt see it all the way through and got hold of an edited version that had edited all the animal cruelty out apparently- didnt have the balls to watch it again.
any animal cruelty really affects me whether fake or real,or real in a fake movie.
the thing with these movies is you have to remember they arent real, for example the rape scenes in them are fake,remember theyre all actors.
if you are mentally processing the reality of these videos you are perhaps learning about the murky world we live in-you dont get this on youtube and i dont see theres anything wrong with that,lots of people are curious with the dark side of life but it doesnt make you a pyschopath.
i used to be obsessed with watching video sites that were totally shocking- i dont want to mention the brutality of some of these videos but they didnt affect me; i was curious,i have no empathy for people,i watched them as i have absolutely no understanding of the way humans work,of how they are and how they are born and leave this earth.its reality and it interested me to understand people better.
the residential home where i lived got a block on my laptop to stop me looking at anything less than decent.