Hello :) I'm Meila, an aspie

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Welcome

 

[Dadwith2Autisticsons]

Well I have just finished my A levels and am awaiting my results, but next year I plan to dedicate it to writing and general life skills really. I desperately need to learn to cook and drive . If I may ask, how old are your sons?

That sounds like a good plan. So many persons jump right to college or university or go to work, before having more life skills. If they want to or have to because of their situation then fine, but with more skills at things such as driving, cooking, budgeting, organization and time management, etc. this could result in more independence and confidence. Our children are 7 and 5. Our oldest Aaron is doing very well educationally, deveopmentally, and behaviorally. Dylan, the youngest, is still mostly nonverbal but getting better there, and he has many great traits and interests as well. Thanks for asking. You seem like a very nice person, like several others on here.

 

[Meila]

Welcome

thank you

 

[Meila]

That sounds like a good plan. So many persons jump right to college or university or go to work, before having more life skills. If they want to or have to because of their situation then fine, but with more skills at things such as driving, cooking, budgeting, organization and time management, etc. this could result in more independence and confidence. Our children are 7 and 5. Our oldest Aaron is doing very well educationally, deveopmentally, and behaviorally. Dylan, the youngest, is still mostly nonverbal but getting better there, and he has many great traits and interests as well.

yeah that's true, loads of people rush into university in England, knowing me there's no way currently I could deal with living alone! Awww that's lovely, that's something about autism that I love, every single person with it has something truly fascinating about them. I think as well you might see a beautiful bond between Dylan and Aaron as they grow up too, it might mean something special to them to have the other sibling growing up right beside them,however similar or different to their own struggles may be

 

[Dadwith2Autisticsons]

yeah that's true, loads of people rush into university in England, knowing me there's no way currently I could deal with living alone! Awww that's lovely, that's something about autism that I love, every single person with it has something truly fascinating about them. I think as well you might see a beautiful bond between Dylan and Aaron as they grow up too, it might mean something special to them to have the other sibling growing up right beside them,however similar or different to their own struggles may be

Very true. Although in many ways they are opposite, despite both having Autism, they seem to be enjoying those differences more and more. For Dylan's recent birthday Aaron even sang the "Happy Birthday" song for him and was very excited in the morning to go get Dylan's big bag of wrapped presents for his little brother. Dylan started giggling when he did both of those nice gestures.

 

[Meila]

Very true. Although in many ways they are opposite, despite both having Autism, they seem to be enjoying those differences more and more. For Dylan's recent birthday Aaron even sang the "Happy Birthday" song for him and was very excited in the morning to go get Dylan's big bag of wrapped presents for his little brother. Dylan started giggling when he did both of those nice gestures.

that is so heartwarming

 

[Maiki]

thank you so much! awww that made me so happy it's my little dog Dixie, I also love your avatar, was drawn to the dog!

Hello You!
Welcome to the gang... err...forum! If we are a gang, we're a friendly one Gotta love those furry little buddies too. That's our pup Molly hanging out on our hammock.

 

[Tyrantus1212]

'Lo Meila. As of a couple of months ago, I'm an Aspie too (well, always been but never confirmed). I'm just glad I went to see someone because I've been struggling so much throughout my entire life with so many things. I have very bad social and communication skills, I've been having trouble making friends most of my life, I have very low self esteem that crosses over into self-hatred, I have behavioral issues because I have trouble controlling my emotions, very very bad anxieties, and the maturity of a toddler. I also experience meltdowns that may get severe enough where I punch myself in the face.

I just wish I could have gone to see a specialist sooner instead of sweeping all these struggles under the rug and hoping that they'd magically go away. I should not have been in denial, I was an idiot. Better late than never though (I'm almost 30 years old). My psychologist recommended that I join an online community for Asperger's, and so here I am. I've improved somewhat over the years but there's still so much left to touch upon. My doc and I are working together on even further improvement; so far we've mostly gone over anxieties and social skills. I want to be able to cope better in the NT world.

I've had some interests - past and present - which include streetlights, sprinklers, construction sites (observing, NOT working at one), integer divisibility, 4-digit numbers that start with 9, bottle caps, Isuzu tow trucks...at one point I used to draw a lot, write a lot and read my favorite atlas all the time; I've memorized pretty much all the countries and their capitals. I used to also study perfect squares and currently remember most of the ones for 0 to 100. Currently I'm obsessed with the online card game of Hearthstone - I don't just play it, but I also talk about it to people, even those who don't play it; I read various sites about it, I watch multiple streamers play it, and I get extremely "tilted" whenever I end up losing too much. At one point during high school I used to constantly talk about Kirby to everyone and I've heard multiple people just tell me straight out stuff like "please stop talking about Kirby".

I'm not really into sports; I do like chess but I was never in the chess club because I thought one had to be a pro to join, and I'm no pro; I was alone most of my life and never had anyone to play and practice it with. I used to be alone most of my life and only now managed to make a few friends - but each time we're apart for longer than a few days I get all worked up and worried that they might not want to be friends anymore. This is a never-ending paranoia; I'm able to cope with some aspects of it using techniques my doc recommended, but in some cases it's just darn impossible. I cannot afford to be alone anymore, and I'm already anxious enough as is. Cannot afford to have depression, and I'm already feeling like I'm on the verge of it.

I work as a software developer and it's a wonder I even kept this job for so long; I got very bad social/communication skills and no common sense. My programming skills are really out there though, I've been told that - plus I'm capable of always treating my boss, coworkers and clients with respect (despite being extremely socially awkward), that's probably why my boss kept me this whole time; I've been working there for over 5 years now. My parents are all NT, everyone at work is NT...I just felt so alone, never belonging anywhere. I'm just so different from all of them and I keep asking if I was adopted. I still have my parents' love and support, and they treat me nicely over at work - but I just constantly drive people insane and that makes me feel like I'm pushing them away.

Joining this online community has been one the best decisions of my life, it's the first time I ever felt like I've belonged anywhere! I'm happy that you joined as well, most definitely. So many great people here who go through similar struggles. I've gained so much insight on my disorder through this community and am always happy to help out whenever I can. It's what we do here. So welcome, again!

 

[Jet Weiss]

Welcome, Meila! So glad you've found us!
Your dog is gorgeous, I am a major dog lover

 

[Meila]

Hello You!
Welcome to the gang... err...forum! If we are a gang, we're a friendly one Gotta love those furry little buddies too. That's our pup Molly hanging out on our hammock.

Gosh she is so cute!!!

 

[Meila]

'Lo Meila. As of a couple of months ago, I'm an Aspie too (well, always been but never confirmed). I'm just glad I went to see someone because I've been struggling so much throughout my entire life with so many things. I have very bad social and communication skills, I've been having trouble making friends most of my life, I have very low self esteem that crosses over into self-hatred, I have behavioral issues because I have trouble controlling my emotions, very very bad anxieties, and the maturity of a toddler. I also experience meltdowns that may get severe enough where I punch myself in the face.

I just wish I could have gone to see a specialist sooner instead of sweeping all these struggles under the rug and hoping that they'd magically go away. I should not have been in denial, I was an idiot. Better late than never though (I'm almost 30 years old). My psychologist recommended that I join an online community for Asperger's, and so here I am. I've improved somewhat over the years but there's still so much left to touch upon. My doc and I are working together on even further improvement; so far we've mostly gone over anxieties and social skills. I want to be able to cope better in the NT world.

I've had some interests - past and present - which include streetlights, sprinklers, construction sites (observing, NOT working at one), integer divisibility, 4-digit numbers that start with 9, bottle caps, Isuzu tow trucks...at one point I used to draw a lot, write a lot and read my favorite atlas all the time; I've memorized pretty much all the countries and their capitals. I used to also study perfect squares and currently remember most of the ones for 0 to 100. Currently I'm obsessed with the online card game of Hearthstone - I don't just play it, but I also talk about it to people, even those who don't play it; I read various sites about it, I watch multiple streamers play it, and I get extremely "tilted" whenever I end up losing too much. At one point during high school I used to constantly talk about Kirby to everyone and I've heard multiple people just tell me straight out stuff like "please stop talking about Kirby".

I'm not really into sports; I do like chess but I was never in the chess club because I thought one had to be a pro to join, and I'm no pro; I was alone most of my life and never had anyone to play and practice it with. I used to be alone most of my life and only now managed to make a few friends - but each time we're apart for longer than a few days I get all worked up and worried that they might not want to be friends anymore. This is a never-ending paranoia; I'm able to cope with some aspects of it using techniques my doc recommended, but in some cases it's just darn impossible. I cannot afford to be alone anymore, and I'm already anxious enough as is. Cannot afford to have depression, and I'm already feeling like I'm on the verge of it.

I work as a software developer and it's a wonder I even kept this job for so long; I got very bad social/communication skills and no common sense. My programming skills are really out there though, I've been told that - plus I'm capable of always treating my boss, coworkers and clients with respect (despite being extremely socially awkward), that's probably why my boss kept me this whole time; I've been working there for over 5 years now. My parents are all NT, everyone at work is NT...I just felt so alone, never belonging anywhere. I'm just so different from all of them and I keep asking if I was adopted. I still have my parents' love and support, and they treat me nicely over at work - but I just constantly drive people insane and that makes me feel like I'm pushing them away.

Joining this online community has been one the best decisions of my life, it's the first time I ever felt like I've belonged anywhere! I'm happy that you joined as well, most definitely. So many great people here who go through similar struggles. I've gained so much insight on my disorder through this community and am always happy to help out whenever I can. It's what we do here. So welcome, again!

Awww thank you so much for that, so many similarities. I can especially relate to the loneliness and"pushing people away" , and the therapy. Gosh, my therapy took ages, because the NHS simply diagnosed me and dismissed me, so all the years of problems and doubts just bubbled even more. Also, when you spoke about Kirby, I'm utterly obsessed with Johnny Depp characters and musicals, so don't worry, i get that too XD The breakdowns are very similar as well, had so many of those (punching in the face, smashing head on walls, bruising self, screaming, literally get suicidal so quickly). But anyway, I love chess too

 

[Meila]

Welcome, Meila! So glad you've found us!
Your dog is gorgeous, I am a major dog lover

Yaaay fellow dog lover

 

[Jet Weiss]

Yaaay fellow dog lover

Yay!!!

 

[Maiki]

Gosh she is so cute!!!

Thanks! Cuteness all around!

 

[Tyrantus1212]

Awww thank you so much for that, so many similarities. I can especially relate to the loneliness and"pushing people away" , and the therapy. Gosh, my therapy took ages, because the NHS simply diagnosed me and dismissed me, so all the years of problems and doubts just bubbled even more. Also, when you spoke about Kirby, I'm utterly obsessed with Johnny Depp characters and musicals, so don't worry, i get that too XD The breakdowns are very similar as well, had so many of those (punching in the face, smashing head on walls, bruising self, screaming, literally get suicidal so quickly). But anyway, I love chess too

I'm sorry this is happening to you. We all go through similar struggles here. I feel like my therapy will take ages too, it's been going on for 2 months weekly and so far we've only covered around 2 or 3 topics. That's just the tip of the tip of the iceberg. Side note - how is Johnny Depp associated with Kirby?

 

[Streetwise]

never liked netball

Hello everybody! I'm Meila from England and was officially diagnosed with aspergers a couple of years ago. I absolutely love sci-fi and horror (though I'm awful with the aftermath of watching the films) and I adore writing, particularly psychological thrillers. I also love Badminton, tennis, netball, olives and scrambled egg!
I'm also known as the nerd who got 9 A* at GCSE. Thank you in advance to anyone who says hi

 

[Gracey]

Hello and welcome

 

[Streetwise]

wish i could speak about your dog but i go into levels cuteness then English stops dogs just make cry brings up watching jay die

 

[Bella Pines]

Hello and welcome! I love sci-fi and marvel and absolutely love writing. I'm probably twice your age but young at heart