I have always hated this expression: well, just think, others have it far worse than you, or something like that.
Well, since the end of last year, onwards, I have started to suffer extruiating lonliness and thought I had got past it, but nope, it came back, but always goes away, when my husband arrives home from work and many times that is a good hour of the day. But I was thinking with dismay, how am I going to get around this, because it is inevitable that I will be on my own, but as soon as he goes off to work, house has this sort of echo feeling and no amount of music has helped.
I have two sort of female friends and one is single; never been married and suffers from lonliness and the other lady is a widow but also suffers from time to time.
I was thinking how can I get through this awful feeling and then suddenly thought: yes, but at last you are not alone 24/24, you have someone who comes home; neither of these ladies have that relief; they have no choice but be on their own.
It certainly did make me pause and sort of: ahhhh ok that is a good point, but I am so surprised to discover that after this thought, when I was once again on my own, because hubby went to work, that echoey feeling DISAPPEARED and today, saturday, when it tends to be worse, if hubby has gone out, despite him being out all day ( I could have gone, but anxiety levels were too high), I have not suffered at all. Oh, aware that I am alone, but absolutely no panic and blinding fear.
So, there you go!
Well, since the end of last year, onwards, I have started to suffer extruiating lonliness and thought I had got past it, but nope, it came back, but always goes away, when my husband arrives home from work and many times that is a good hour of the day. But I was thinking with dismay, how am I going to get around this, because it is inevitable that I will be on my own, but as soon as he goes off to work, house has this sort of echo feeling and no amount of music has helped.
I have two sort of female friends and one is single; never been married and suffers from lonliness and the other lady is a widow but also suffers from time to time.
I was thinking how can I get through this awful feeling and then suddenly thought: yes, but at last you are not alone 24/24, you have someone who comes home; neither of these ladies have that relief; they have no choice but be on their own.
It certainly did make me pause and sort of: ahhhh ok that is a good point, but I am so surprised to discover that after this thought, when I was once again on my own, because hubby went to work, that echoey feeling DISAPPEARED and today, saturday, when it tends to be worse, if hubby has gone out, despite him being out all day ( I could have gone, but anxiety levels were too high), I have not suffered at all. Oh, aware that I am alone, but absolutely no panic and blinding fear.
So, there you go!