Woah there's people who obsess over lists as much as i do! After my parents went haywire on me a year or so ago, i was terrified of them finding out how i didn't just magically get better in fact i got way worse - depresssion, anxiety, selfharm - and being kicked out like they said i'd be. In order to deal with that, or at least try to, i dealt with my fear of not bein able to support myself by making lists. I would calculate my projected earnings down to the half hour, hell fifteen minutes even, and then go through different area providers and look up how much they'd cost. The worst one though was going through the weekly sales ads and figuring out how i'd feed myself on as cheap a budget as possible. When the idea came up that i'm most likely high functioning autistic, that's since died down a bit because they became a little more accepting of me. Not much though, they still threatened to kick me out if i didn't get back in college on a monthly basis. But i'm back in school now and they love me again. Yeah i have huge issues with accomplishment based love now, its hell. But getting back on subject, on a more day to day basis i make categorized, detailed to do lists everyday with what i have to do. Even perusing on my laptop i'll always have one or two notepad lists open. Like right now, i'm starting a new game on pokemon soulsilver so of course i have to make a list of the team i want. I obssessively plan and list everything, and i'm not totally sure why i guess it just makes everything more predictable, more known and less anxiety producing. But why i do it even with fanfics and video games i have no idea.
Lists are just really cool, you'd think I'd have my stuff together with all the lists I make, but alas.
