Datura
Well-Known Member
Reading through some of the threads in this section got me thinking about my own love life and how things have gone wrong for me. Looking back I realize that I have a tendency to say the exact wrong thing in romantic situations.
For example; my first partner used to ask me questions like, "Will you always love me, no matter what?" I had to answer honestly, "No. I do love you, but if you were to do something horrible, like eat my face, I wouldn't be able to love you any more." This caused my partner to become very upset. She asked me why I had to say things like that. Granted, the imagery was a bit more graphic than necessary, but what I was saying was vital. Love isn't unconditional, and it shouldn't be. If one does something untoward they can render themselves unlovable.
Of course I know what response she was looking for. A simple "yes" would have sufficed. It would have also been dishonest and made me incredibly uncomfortable. How can one live up to such a promise? It strikes me that this might be what people mean by aspies "being too literal" - that I should have just played along and our relationship would be better for it.
I had an other partner who came out in lingerie while I was sleeping over at her place. She asked me, "Don't you just want to ravish me?" I answered, "No. But I'm asexual, so I really don't want to ravish anyone." I think this might have hurt her feelings and was a factor in our breakup soon thereafter. She knew I was asexual, so I don't know what she was expecting, but I suppose that being found sexually desirable was important to her self esteem. She was an amazing person, and I wish she was still in my life. Perhaps I should have feigned interest and given her what she wanted. I don't know.
Does anybody else have trouble with romance? Does anyone have advice in meeting their partner’s needs without predicating a relationship on lies?
For example; my first partner used to ask me questions like, "Will you always love me, no matter what?" I had to answer honestly, "No. I do love you, but if you were to do something horrible, like eat my face, I wouldn't be able to love you any more." This caused my partner to become very upset. She asked me why I had to say things like that. Granted, the imagery was a bit more graphic than necessary, but what I was saying was vital. Love isn't unconditional, and it shouldn't be. If one does something untoward they can render themselves unlovable.
Of course I know what response she was looking for. A simple "yes" would have sufficed. It would have also been dishonest and made me incredibly uncomfortable. How can one live up to such a promise? It strikes me that this might be what people mean by aspies "being too literal" - that I should have just played along and our relationship would be better for it.
I had an other partner who came out in lingerie while I was sleeping over at her place. She asked me, "Don't you just want to ravish me?" I answered, "No. But I'm asexual, so I really don't want to ravish anyone." I think this might have hurt her feelings and was a factor in our breakup soon thereafter. She knew I was asexual, so I don't know what she was expecting, but I suppose that being found sexually desirable was important to her self esteem. She was an amazing person, and I wish she was still in my life. Perhaps I should have feigned interest and given her what she wanted. I don't know.
Does anybody else have trouble with romance? Does anyone have advice in meeting their partner’s needs without predicating a relationship on lies?