Just something I've noticed that my autism traits are becoming more significant as I am aging.
I can look back over my life and it's easy to see the traits when I was young - didn't learn to talk until I was in second grade and using other's to speak for me. I used to sit hidden from the rest of the family while watching tv with the family. I can remember how pleasant the texture of chewing on leather anything (and getting yelled at for it lol). I would pull out the different files in my head for daydreams instead of listening to the teacher and had a desk full of paper toys I had made during class. I never made friends and as a teenager didn't even want to fit in with the other girls because I wasn't interested in make up and fashion and all the stuff they only wanted to talk about.
As an adult I had to force myself to go to school and work and support my kids and be a cheer mom, attend school functions and all that stuff. Though I never made friends and often was disliked. I really was confused when my boss asked me what I didn't like about her and I answered and she cried. Why??? I thought she wanted to know so she could stop doing those things.
Anyway, it feels like I'm regressing and the autism traits are more prominent again. Or maybe I'm just more aware since my diagnosis. One thing I have noticed is that it's easier letting go of people. Old friends and siblings I just don't have an interest in and it irritates me if I get a phone call from one of them. (Does not hold true with my children or their families).
I can look back over my life and it's easy to see the traits when I was young - didn't learn to talk until I was in second grade and using other's to speak for me. I used to sit hidden from the rest of the family while watching tv with the family. I can remember how pleasant the texture of chewing on leather anything (and getting yelled at for it lol). I would pull out the different files in my head for daydreams instead of listening to the teacher and had a desk full of paper toys I had made during class. I never made friends and as a teenager didn't even want to fit in with the other girls because I wasn't interested in make up and fashion and all the stuff they only wanted to talk about.
As an adult I had to force myself to go to school and work and support my kids and be a cheer mom, attend school functions and all that stuff. Though I never made friends and often was disliked. I really was confused when my boss asked me what I didn't like about her and I answered and she cried. Why??? I thought she wanted to know so she could stop doing those things.
Anyway, it feels like I'm regressing and the autism traits are more prominent again. Or maybe I'm just more aware since my diagnosis. One thing I have noticed is that it's easier letting go of people. Old friends and siblings I just don't have an interest in and it irritates me if I get a phone call from one of them. (Does not hold true with my children or their families).