Aspergirl4hire
Mage, Sage, Revolutionary
Well I'm supposed to meet with a case worker at voc rehab next week. But again, I'm not liking myself at all...
That's the thing to work on. You are participating in the 'dumping on yourself' and that's giving power and force to bad things and snags when they happen. Stop it, now. I speak as someone who also doesn't like herself, and who only recently realized just how obvious that is to everyone else. Which means that I leak the very poison that they drink and spew back. I am the source!
Please think carefully about this. There's little you can do about the people you live with, but the little you can do is develop some respect, some fondness, some enjoyment of your own company. When that is what people experience of you, they will start to respond. Not universally. Nothing always works the way I want it to. But often enough, improvement begets improvement.
I have no confidence at all I've never had a regular job and am scared to death but it looks like I won't have to worry because I'm not going to get one.
Those lines speak volumes. You could also say, with equal truth: I have no confidence at all I've never had a regular job and am scared to death but it looks like I won't have to worry because I am working on what I can change and asking God for help with what I can't control.