Mars26
21 years old aspie
I'll start with the hardest thing. I lost my friend in Monday and I was at her funeral yesterday. I mention this because it is quite relevant to my thread.
Let's start from the beginning my late friend, me and my other friend were close but we weren't each other only friends. When we started college each of us met new people but we remain close friends. My second friend made friends with frat boys (technically they are not in fraternity but I call them that), me and my late friend also were friendly with his new friends. However, as I got to know them better, I discovered that they are not nice people. So I focused on other people in my group who are nice. I was still friends with my two friends but we spent less time together. After a while my second friend stoped talking to me except moments when I spoke to him first. My late friend still were close to me but she was more befriended with our other friend friends than with mine.
Then my friend died and for a moment my second friend and I were close again but this was short-lived. He was avoiding me again. He and his friends (who hardly knew her) bought a wreath for her grave. I wasn't offended because he said that I can contribute but still this was weird. He preferred to buy a wreath for our friend with them than with me.
I know that it is my fault, that my friend and me aren't close anymore but I still like him and I need him because after our friend death I'm alone.
Let's start from the beginning my late friend, me and my other friend were close but we weren't each other only friends. When we started college each of us met new people but we remain close friends. My second friend made friends with frat boys (technically they are not in fraternity but I call them that), me and my late friend also were friendly with his new friends. However, as I got to know them better, I discovered that they are not nice people. So I focused on other people in my group who are nice. I was still friends with my two friends but we spent less time together. After a while my second friend stoped talking to me except moments when I spoke to him first. My late friend still were close to me but she was more befriended with our other friend friends than with mine.
Then my friend died and for a moment my second friend and I were close again but this was short-lived. He was avoiding me again. He and his friends (who hardly knew her) bought a wreath for her grave. I wasn't offended because he said that I can contribute but still this was weird. He preferred to buy a wreath for our friend with them than with me.
I know that it is my fault, that my friend and me aren't close anymore but I still like him and I need him because after our friend death I'm alone.