ChrisC1983
Well-Known Member
seems i didn't notice it switched to another page this morning.. anyway..
to build on what you mentioned (which i believe, i hear women say the same thing).. i also hear children of african descent (doesn't matter if both parents are black or only 1 is.. or even just a portion.. so long as they have a dark enough skintone for others to consider them as "black") they'll call eachother the "n" word all the time. this kid next door to my aunt yells it to his brothers all the time (he has about 3 brothers.. and he's the oldest, i would say 12-14 in age). it's supposed to be such a disrespectful word, and i fully understand why it would be.. but today it's just becoming a race-only word. not in the way that it's said specifically towards 1 race, but that only 1 race can say it outloud without harassment. i'm not racist.. my reason for not going outside to most people is "look at me, i'm like casper.. i'll burst into flames" or something relating myself to casper and catching fire anyway.. i have no reason to say it but the inequality of it bothers me.
i'm not even sure if they teach cursive writing in school anymore. i remember in 1st grade having to learn cursive... my handwriting was atrocious, but i did learn it. and today? most people i meet can't even read cursive. they're surprised somebody my age can read the old letters i get (i sell antiques.. so anything hand written is almost always in cursive. it's like a dead language today)
to skip the debate you mentioned i'll just leave it at... i agree. people are baffled when i tell them i enjoy sorting and research. although i've lost my other hobbies i have kept my OCD and curiosity. i've talked (very minimally) with 1 customer for hours about marbles because they're difficult to research without owning perfect examples and i thought it was fun. he's close to if not already 70 and has been collecting marbles since he was a kid, and he worked at a glass factory so he knows a lot about how they're made and how to identify a chip from a natural pontil mark or air bubble or simple defect in the production... yeah, long story short, he's very knowledgeable. and i think it's great. you should always want to and be eager to learn.. the moment you stop learning, you stop evolving.
when i entered school (1st or 2nd grade, forgot which) the teacher was amazed i knew so much about egypt and the titanic and history.. i loved watching everything i could on TV about that kind of stuff. but, as you mentioned, i unknowingly instantly invited bullying by talking about that stuff and it followed through the rest of elementary school (which is 8th grade in my area.. don't get me wrong, i stopped talking about that stuff. but the door was already open.. so anything i spoke of, or just how i spoke was poked fun of. i would hum (i thought it was silent) to "pop" my ears because the pressure would bother me and make it hard to hear.. but 1 person next to me heard the hum, so that was their thing to pick on me about for the rest of the school year and part of the next. i forgot what they moved onto.. something with my body movement. joints get stiff so i need to move a weird way to get the pain to go away)
i already mentioned the learning thing.. but, as you said.. i want to be wrong. i enjoy being wrong. i know part of my judgement cloud is self created because i do the same to people (judge them without talking to them) and i do use generalizations based on various factors (age, attire, heritage, how they talk, what they say, tones they say it in and sofourth) and expect to have some wrong ideas from those generalizations.. but far too often i'm more correct than incorrect in them and i hate it. i often think the worse of people so when i'm wrong about them.. it's fantastic. sadly, even when i'm wrong about them.. it's usually a minor aspect (like them not lieing as much as i expected.. but they still lie often)
i can't speak for you.. but as for myself.. i'm trying to bring some of myself back into my life. which isn't easy in my family (they verbally say they're accepting of everything.. in actuality.. not so much). i want to see how "weird" i can be in public until i can find a point where i'm comfortable with who i am while in public. currently.. i'm barely comfortable with myself in private.. so it will be quite a journey. but what i'm doing is starting here on this site and just trying to speak my mind (albeit long winded sometimes) so i can bring that into my life because i know, here, most of my "quirks" are just normal everyday things many here have always had and lived with. and even if it is a bit odd.. there's a lot more understanding here than anywhere else online or off that i'm aware of
to build on what you mentioned (which i believe, i hear women say the same thing).. i also hear children of african descent (doesn't matter if both parents are black or only 1 is.. or even just a portion.. so long as they have a dark enough skintone for others to consider them as "black") they'll call eachother the "n" word all the time. this kid next door to my aunt yells it to his brothers all the time (he has about 3 brothers.. and he's the oldest, i would say 12-14 in age). it's supposed to be such a disrespectful word, and i fully understand why it would be.. but today it's just becoming a race-only word. not in the way that it's said specifically towards 1 race, but that only 1 race can say it outloud without harassment. i'm not racist.. my reason for not going outside to most people is "look at me, i'm like casper.. i'll burst into flames" or something relating myself to casper and catching fire anyway.. i have no reason to say it but the inequality of it bothers me.
i'm not even sure if they teach cursive writing in school anymore. i remember in 1st grade having to learn cursive... my handwriting was atrocious, but i did learn it. and today? most people i meet can't even read cursive. they're surprised somebody my age can read the old letters i get (i sell antiques.. so anything hand written is almost always in cursive. it's like a dead language today)
to skip the debate you mentioned i'll just leave it at... i agree. people are baffled when i tell them i enjoy sorting and research. although i've lost my other hobbies i have kept my OCD and curiosity. i've talked (very minimally) with 1 customer for hours about marbles because they're difficult to research without owning perfect examples and i thought it was fun. he's close to if not already 70 and has been collecting marbles since he was a kid, and he worked at a glass factory so he knows a lot about how they're made and how to identify a chip from a natural pontil mark or air bubble or simple defect in the production... yeah, long story short, he's very knowledgeable. and i think it's great. you should always want to and be eager to learn.. the moment you stop learning, you stop evolving.
when i entered school (1st or 2nd grade, forgot which) the teacher was amazed i knew so much about egypt and the titanic and history.. i loved watching everything i could on TV about that kind of stuff. but, as you mentioned, i unknowingly instantly invited bullying by talking about that stuff and it followed through the rest of elementary school (which is 8th grade in my area.. don't get me wrong, i stopped talking about that stuff. but the door was already open.. so anything i spoke of, or just how i spoke was poked fun of. i would hum (i thought it was silent) to "pop" my ears because the pressure would bother me and make it hard to hear.. but 1 person next to me heard the hum, so that was their thing to pick on me about for the rest of the school year and part of the next. i forgot what they moved onto.. something with my body movement. joints get stiff so i need to move a weird way to get the pain to go away)
i already mentioned the learning thing.. but, as you said.. i want to be wrong. i enjoy being wrong. i know part of my judgement cloud is self created because i do the same to people (judge them without talking to them) and i do use generalizations based on various factors (age, attire, heritage, how they talk, what they say, tones they say it in and sofourth) and expect to have some wrong ideas from those generalizations.. but far too often i'm more correct than incorrect in them and i hate it. i often think the worse of people so when i'm wrong about them.. it's fantastic. sadly, even when i'm wrong about them.. it's usually a minor aspect (like them not lieing as much as i expected.. but they still lie often)
i can't speak for you.. but as for myself.. i'm trying to bring some of myself back into my life. which isn't easy in my family (they verbally say they're accepting of everything.. in actuality.. not so much). i want to see how "weird" i can be in public until i can find a point where i'm comfortable with who i am while in public. currently.. i'm barely comfortable with myself in private.. so it will be quite a journey. but what i'm doing is starting here on this site and just trying to speak my mind (albeit long winded sometimes) so i can bring that into my life because i know, here, most of my "quirks" are just normal everyday things many here have always had and lived with. and even if it is a bit odd.. there's a lot more understanding here than anywhere else online or off that i'm aware of