red_dog
Well-Known Member
I always have quite a lot of anxiety, which I don't really deal with well. But there are times that my anxiety gets so high that I can't do anything.
At the moment my anxiety is extra high because:
- I moved to a new town at the start of the year to start a new job, and am still getting used to all the differences including the isolation
- I feel I don't know what is expected of me at work & am struggling with social relationships with my colleagues
- I had to change to a new psychologist which lasted for 2 sessions & now have to change again
- I rely a lot on 1 friend for support & he has said this is too much & wants me to cut back how much I contact him
My anxiety is increasing because my supervisor is visiting at work this week (she comes once a month). She is quite nice and kind, and is much less critical of things than I am on myself. But she is still my supervisor & could potentially sack me (I have had a turbulent employment history so fear this). I think I have generally been doing a good job, but 1 of my co-workers doesn't like me & seems to criticise me for minor things each day. Also the only objective performance measure is the number of formal observations that I have done each week. I was going to write up 6 from last week over the weekend, but couldn't. Due to printer issues at work I didn't need to submit them today, but will tomorrow, but I can't even start doing them.
I'm also struggling with lots of basic things at home, partly because I feel that I should be doing my work & partly cause I'm just so tired & can't think properly. This includes showering, cooking, washing dishes, general tidiness, washing clothes, exercising etc. Am not sleeping well either.
I am also struggling with basic things at work, such as remembering what tasks need to be done, and have at times just stood and watched the others as I don't know what to do.
I know if I can just finish the write ups of the observations, then I will be ok, even if not great. But when I try to do them my mind just goes blank & I can't think of what to say.
Am looking for short term strategies to help me get through the next couple of days, especially dealing with the writing of the obs (either getting them done, or coping with them not being done).
I haven't told my workplace about my aspergers or anxiety as I fear they would discriminate against me & I would loose my job.
At the moment my anxiety is extra high because:
- I moved to a new town at the start of the year to start a new job, and am still getting used to all the differences including the isolation
- I feel I don't know what is expected of me at work & am struggling with social relationships with my colleagues
- I had to change to a new psychologist which lasted for 2 sessions & now have to change again
- I rely a lot on 1 friend for support & he has said this is too much & wants me to cut back how much I contact him
My anxiety is increasing because my supervisor is visiting at work this week (she comes once a month). She is quite nice and kind, and is much less critical of things than I am on myself. But she is still my supervisor & could potentially sack me (I have had a turbulent employment history so fear this). I think I have generally been doing a good job, but 1 of my co-workers doesn't like me & seems to criticise me for minor things each day. Also the only objective performance measure is the number of formal observations that I have done each week. I was going to write up 6 from last week over the weekend, but couldn't. Due to printer issues at work I didn't need to submit them today, but will tomorrow, but I can't even start doing them.
I'm also struggling with lots of basic things at home, partly because I feel that I should be doing my work & partly cause I'm just so tired & can't think properly. This includes showering, cooking, washing dishes, general tidiness, washing clothes, exercising etc. Am not sleeping well either.
I am also struggling with basic things at work, such as remembering what tasks need to be done, and have at times just stood and watched the others as I don't know what to do.
I know if I can just finish the write ups of the observations, then I will be ok, even if not great. But when I try to do them my mind just goes blank & I can't think of what to say.
Am looking for short term strategies to help me get through the next couple of days, especially dealing with the writing of the obs (either getting them done, or coping with them not being done).
I haven't told my workplace about my aspergers or anxiety as I fear they would discriminate against me & I would loose my job.