Aspies are much more attentive and will catch on differently than others. Meaning, they see things this way: why fix it if it ain't broken? Aspies are very much aware of the fact that they are being observed. I myself hate any type of observation and I will do ANYTHING not to be observed. It interferes with my privacy when knowing that I am observed.My daughter is 11 and she has been diagnosed with aspergers since she was 7. The last 8 months she has been afraid of eyes watching her or looking at her. She will turn dolls around and scratch out eyes in drawings in her workbooks. She tells me that she fells like everyone is watching her. I have her seeing a counselor and she wont open up to her or any other one I have taken her to. At my daughters first appointment she became upset and the counselor and the counselor was looking at her and my daughter screamed at her " stop looking at me" and then began to cry and wanted to leave. She is almost always pretty mellow and this is not like her at all. I am wondering if I need to be worried or talk to her doctor or is this something normal?
I know that a therapist has to observe to heal but here, right here and now I am confessing that is driving me up the wall. I have mental images of screaming at the top of my lungs that I am being observed and I hate it so much that I now have stopped doing the things that I normally would do. I refuse to partake in actions of any kind that I usually partake in. Why? Because I know I am being observed. I think it is unfair, even if it is from a therapist and I almost feel like your little girl right now. I could scratch someone's eyes out because of this, I really could.