rolo
Well-Known Member
I seem to have added another sound to my stimming menagerie-as well as wolves and various primates I have just made some kind of prehistoric bird sound- I had a hyper earlier after a meltdown due to trying for hours to put photos on this site-the computer usually is the final straw when my stress levels have built over a period of days-I see the red mist and used to break stuff-printers , laptop, and mobiles usually got the brunt of it-since diagnosis I am saving money by not breaking stuff but seem to making more sounds. For a long time I thought I was mad and felt immensely ashamed and embarrassed after the event- very few people have actually physically witnessed me in full chorus but have heard me and were scared and very freaked out. I also make sounds when I have become over excited or confused-they well up inside me and I am compelled to let go lest I explode. I seem to internalize all my stress and very rarely shout at other people and am never violent to others. Mostly I can control myself by staying calm-today I knew time was up- it was like the calm before the storm. Does anyone out there do anything similar.I know this is a hard one to own but if you can't be honest here, where else can you be.