Marioraider18
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Hey everyone my name is Mariusz and recently I have been addicted (again) to video games and it has gotten extreme in many significant regards towards my overall well being.
Heres my situation
I have not been diagnosed with Aspergers.
Why? I havent been evaluated by a professional.
Why not? I never knew about anything autism related until I found a book of it in my school library that upon reading it, felt like it was my own body in the memoir with a different experience.
I was amazed at it then sort of put it aside. It wasn't really on my mind until my sleep doctor suggested I go see a psychologist. I started crying in her office and felt as though she was ignorant and didnt know how to properly diagnose my sleeping problems.(and i do feel sort of stupid for thinking that way)
So to shorten a few things in this post I studied a few books and did research online about Aspergers and it felt like a reflection of who I am.
Now although some may be skeptical of whether or not I have Aspergers. I for one do not have any true friends where I can be myself around. I have light sensitivity and sound sensitivity. (I sleep with blackout curtains, wear earplugs during sleep, take the brightness off of my phone and computer screen at both my work and my phone etc.) I seem to have extreme rage moments for certain things that build up. I have extreme trouble knowing how people feel unless I think about the words they say and look at any visible facial features that may show how they feel. Prior to gaming I got A's in all my classes. Sleep problems, depressed when not gaming which is part of why I play, do routine things all the time. Suck very bad in 2 or more groups of people. Have anxiety at times and more frequent random thoughts when sleeping and also am anxious around people. Prefer being alone because people dont understand me. And I also scored way above the online test autism evaluation for an autism spectrum disorder. I also think I have add but never been formally diagnosed either.
So basically my grades and courses coubt has plummetted. I am in process of dropping one class (i already dropped one near the beginning) this semester because I spent time playing video games. I had this whole week off of school to study for a midterm on monday but played video games instead and have spent many times during the semester playing in excess of 10 hours a day. Some days I havent slept in more than 24 hours all within this semester.
I am going to get myself evaluted but have trouble finding a doctor in north nj that will accept my insurance (United Healthcare Commhnity Plan). I have a few numbers that I will try on tuesday which is my day off.
I have started gaming since those fat gameboys appeared and I have always spent my days playing games up until about the age of 20 where I completely stopped. Then about age 23 I started the process again and feel like I ****ed up badly. On top of my addiction problem I got hemmroids probably from sitting on my ass all day playing games. I used to go on walks which I somewhat enjoyed but now I sit all day in my room playing. What can I do to help me stop this? I have tried not using any screen technology because it captures my mind into the screen but I am required to use it because I have homework to do on the internet.
Its wierd because I go in with the mentality of getting my work done but once I stay on the pc for a while I get thoughts of going on gaming sites watching youtube videos or playing games.
Can anyone relate to their gaming addictions? I seriously need help to stop completely because moderation does not work for me with gaming. I feel like this will shorten my life expectancy and probably is and I will not have a good job in the future. Please help because I am desperate to get myself out of this video game life.
Im going to sleep now and have to get up for work bht I will get back to you guys later tonight I promise
Heres my situation
I have not been diagnosed with Aspergers.
Why? I havent been evaluated by a professional.
Why not? I never knew about anything autism related until I found a book of it in my school library that upon reading it, felt like it was my own body in the memoir with a different experience.
I was amazed at it then sort of put it aside. It wasn't really on my mind until my sleep doctor suggested I go see a psychologist. I started crying in her office and felt as though she was ignorant and didnt know how to properly diagnose my sleeping problems.(and i do feel sort of stupid for thinking that way)
So to shorten a few things in this post I studied a few books and did research online about Aspergers and it felt like a reflection of who I am.
Now although some may be skeptical of whether or not I have Aspergers. I for one do not have any true friends where I can be myself around. I have light sensitivity and sound sensitivity. (I sleep with blackout curtains, wear earplugs during sleep, take the brightness off of my phone and computer screen at both my work and my phone etc.) I seem to have extreme rage moments for certain things that build up. I have extreme trouble knowing how people feel unless I think about the words they say and look at any visible facial features that may show how they feel. Prior to gaming I got A's in all my classes. Sleep problems, depressed when not gaming which is part of why I play, do routine things all the time. Suck very bad in 2 or more groups of people. Have anxiety at times and more frequent random thoughts when sleeping and also am anxious around people. Prefer being alone because people dont understand me. And I also scored way above the online test autism evaluation for an autism spectrum disorder. I also think I have add but never been formally diagnosed either.
So basically my grades and courses coubt has plummetted. I am in process of dropping one class (i already dropped one near the beginning) this semester because I spent time playing video games. I had this whole week off of school to study for a midterm on monday but played video games instead and have spent many times during the semester playing in excess of 10 hours a day. Some days I havent slept in more than 24 hours all within this semester.
I am going to get myself evaluted but have trouble finding a doctor in north nj that will accept my insurance (United Healthcare Commhnity Plan). I have a few numbers that I will try on tuesday which is my day off.
I have started gaming since those fat gameboys appeared and I have always spent my days playing games up until about the age of 20 where I completely stopped. Then about age 23 I started the process again and feel like I ****ed up badly. On top of my addiction problem I got hemmroids probably from sitting on my ass all day playing games. I used to go on walks which I somewhat enjoyed but now I sit all day in my room playing. What can I do to help me stop this? I have tried not using any screen technology because it captures my mind into the screen but I am required to use it because I have homework to do on the internet.
Its wierd because I go in with the mentality of getting my work done but once I stay on the pc for a while I get thoughts of going on gaming sites watching youtube videos or playing games.
Can anyone relate to their gaming addictions? I seriously need help to stop completely because moderation does not work for me with gaming. I feel like this will shorten my life expectancy and probably is and I will not have a good job in the future. Please help because I am desperate to get myself out of this video game life.
Im going to sleep now and have to get up for work bht I will get back to you guys later tonight I promise