So I watched Joker (2019) last week. I brought it up in today's therapy session and it made me tearful multiple times.
His trauma response is uncontrollable laughter. The way people react reminded me of how people react when they see my physical or verbal tics. It hit home hard. This is how I process stress etc. but when people see it, they mock, they laugh, or they have a threatened or scared look on their faces.
Reminds me once again of a line from Prayer of Saint Francis: "to be understood as to understand."
It's difficult when you're repeatedly misunderstood, but when you find your voice, you get gaslighted. Happened throughout childhood and continues to this day with my parents. It is what it is I suppose. A product of your environment. Not to say all is set in stone. Realising it, learning about trauma and trying to heal and adapt.
Anyway, it was on my mind, so I posted it here.
Ed
His trauma response is uncontrollable laughter. The way people react reminded me of how people react when they see my physical or verbal tics. It hit home hard. This is how I process stress etc. but when people see it, they mock, they laugh, or they have a threatened or scared look on their faces.
Reminds me once again of a line from Prayer of Saint Francis: "to be understood as to understand."
It's difficult when you're repeatedly misunderstood, but when you find your voice, you get gaslighted. Happened throughout childhood and continues to this day with my parents. It is what it is I suppose. A product of your environment. Not to say all is set in stone. Realising it, learning about trauma and trying to heal and adapt.
Anyway, it was on my mind, so I posted it here.
Ed