SunnyDay16
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No, you're not unreasonable for feeling this way. I don't really tell people I have Asperger's unless I absolutely have to, because I don't really take pride in having it. I accept it, but I don't take pride in it.
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I always try and be honest as possible, but in truth I am diagnosed with mostly high functioning Autism and other stuff. I often just try and run under the radar with Asperger's, just because to tell someone I have Autism (and all the add ons) just makes me feel lesser of a human maybe? It makes me feel stupid, or weak, and I'm not.
Asperger's just sounds less harsh, less formal, less labeled. Yet, I sort of feel like a liar and that bothers me? When I am forced into discussing this in person (which makes me very uncomfortable) Do you think its okay to just say Asperger's... I have a reason for asking.
I have said Asperger's, and people just usually roll with it, and all is basically cool, but you say Autism and people often get cold, or awkward, or ask some really stupid questions that I don't want to deal with. Some have even made some reasonably ugly remarks and it sucks.
You can be honest with your answers... I asked for the honesty, so say what you think.
Chance, it sounds like you are struggling what many people eventually run across...if I am what I do, what happens when I can't do that anymore?
Without going into great detail, in a prior life, I was in the military. I believed in what I was doing, I was really good at my job, in large part my sense of who I was, my self worth, was part and parcel of what I did. When I retired, I realized that all that time, energy, effort, was basically wasted. It was devastating. I had to relearn everything I thought I knew about who I was and where I was going and learn to place value in something other than "Look, I did this good thing, I made a difference".
None of that makes it better or easier. I'm sorry that you are going through this. Just understand you are not alone in how you are feeling or what you are going through.
look up disability descrimination against autistic adults in the workplace! i also typed in usa! there were numerous sites .
the scum that slandered you should be warned:-| make sure you know the law that pertains to descrimination against autistic adults its not the same as physical disability
:-[ print it out keep it with you at the office
:-|
you have to be as wise as a snake :-@ people sue for the fact that you farted near them these days .:-(
I finally did something good, but the toll I pay everyday is massive.
Each time I accomplish something, anything...I think of something similar to this. Yet that one accomplishment, the deed where I didn't disappoint anybody or screw anything up - it makes me feel different about myself, it makes me feel actual happiness inside me...not a mixture of happiness and worry. The feeling is always temporary though, because oftentimes at work the boss would tell me good job but then after that, either minutes or days/weeks later, we end up reaching a moment where something is not working...and I start hating myself again. A lot. I throw tantrums in front of my coworkers, and still get those goddam "what good will worrying do for you?" - they just don't understand. They're not on the spectrum, so how can they expect me to just magically stop worrying???? And should I have logically been fired ages ago?? Whenever something ends up not working (and usually I'm responsible), I ALWAYS fix it - even if I threw a tantrum or made an excuse. I put myself in his shoes and I just keep getting cold feet about myself...so how in the world am I still there? I just feel like my coworkers are better at simply NOT causing these goddam software bugs in the first place because they have common sense and I don't.
There's no reason to tell them anything at all. Just be yourself. AND if you DO want to mention it, Asperger's is on the spectrum so you are not lying at all. But I think I would be pretty close to someone before I would just tell them that out of the blue. Good luck!I always try and be honest as possible, but in truth I am diagnosed with mostly high functioning Autism and other stuff. I often just try and run under the radar with Asperger's, just because to tell someone I have Autism (and all the add ons) just makes me feel lesser of a human maybe? It makes me feel stupid, or weak, and I'm not.
Asperger's just sounds less harsh, less formal, less labeled. Yet, I sort of feel like a liar and that bothers me? When I am forced into discussing this in person (which makes me very uncomfortable) Do you think its okay to just say Asperger's... I have a reason for asking.
I have said Asperger's, and people just usually roll with it, and all is basically cool, but you say Autism and people often get cold, or awkward, or ask some really stupid questions that I don't want to deal with. Some have even made some reasonably ugly remarks and it sucks.
You can be honest with your answers... I asked for the honesty, so say what you think.
Please don't be so hard on yourself; I guarantee the coworkers mess up plenty themselves! It has nothing to do with intelligence or common sense. People aren't perfect; they make mistakes. Stop kicking yourself and comparing yourself to them. I'm sure you have plenty of gifts they don't. Good luck to you!Each time I accomplish something, anything...I think of something similar to this. Yet that one accomplishment, the deed where I didn't disappoint anybody or screw anything up - it makes me feel different about myself, it makes me feel actual happiness inside me...not a mixture of happiness and worry. The feeling is always temporary though, because oftentimes at work the boss would tell me good job but then after that, either minutes or days/weeks later, we end up reaching a moment where something is not working...and I start hating myself again. A lot. I throw tantrums in front of my coworkers, and still get those goddam "what good will worrying do for you?" - they just don't understand. They're not on the spectrum, so how can they expect me to just magically stop worrying???? And should I have logically been fired ages ago?? Whenever something ends up not working (and usually I'm responsible), I ALWAYS fix it - even if I threw a tantrum or made an excuse. I put myself in his shoes and I just keep getting cold feet about myself...so how in the world am I still there? I just feel like my coworkers are better at simply NOT causing these goddam software bugs in the first place because they have common sense and I don't.
Please don't be so hard on yourself; I guarantee the coworkers mess up plenty themselves! It has nothing to do with intelligence or common sense. People aren't perfect; they make mistakes. Stop kicking yourself and comparing yourself to them. I'm sure you have plenty of gifts they don't. Good luck to you!
"Dude he has Autism." It all just hit me wrong, and then this guy said, "Wow, he doesn't look retarded..." It pissed me off, and in classic ASD style I'm still bothered by it, and I know I need to let it go, and I am trying.
My Buddy noticed it made things worse when he told the guy I had Autism. He was trying to defend me, but it basically backfired. He felt like dirt and I told him it was okay. He just told the truth, but it did make the whole thing worse.
Aren't you one of us in the 30+ crowd where Autism/Aspberger's was not even recognized as a diagnosis when we were kids?
Please go to www.aspergerexperts.com and watch their free content! They have Asperger's and know everything you are suffering, and they understand. They have ways to cope with all the things you are feeling and strategies to get better. Some on here have called it a scam site; they did not investigate it enough. It is not! I have learned more about Asperger's on that site than anywhere. People are so ignorant; I hope you can learn to let it be their problem and not yours. You don't owe anyone an explanation. You are probably a lot smarter than they are. God bless, and good luck to you!After I was diagnosed I was forced to tell my employer. I was told because of my position in the company and because of our insurance I would need to disclose this. I did, and told the real truth, and all was okay, nothing changed. Somethings even improved because now they got why I would get exhausted and stuff.
Not long ago I was at a conference. I didn't want to go, but knew I had to go. I don't want to give anyone an excuse to think I cant do my job. I was with a guy I work with, and he's a great guy. I was exhausted. I was about to shut down. It was late. It was loud. It was just a roar and my ears were actually hurting. This guy who was talking with us, noticed me acting odd I guess. He made a remark that wasn't kind, he might have been joking at first I couldn't tell (I cant figure out strangers expressions or comments sometimes) ... and I just said I have Asperger's and my friend said, "Dude he has Autism." It all just hit me wrong, and then this guy said, "Wow, he doesn't look retarded..." It pissed me off, and in classic ASD style I'm still bothered by it, and I know I need to let it go, and I am trying.
My Buddy noticed it made things worse when he told the guy I had Autism. He was trying to defend me, but it basically backfired. He felt like dirt and I told him it was okay. He just told the truth, but it did make the whole thing worse.
I know people may not know what Asperger's is... but they sure have a view on what Autism is and I just... I just wish I had some way to explain that I'm not a freak when Im basically freaking out. Its just messed up.
I try not to ever bring it up. I don't want the attention at all, that is a big part of my problem. I don't even like talking about it with my family. Its something I feel very uncomfortable with... and today my cousin was here visiting and he brought it up. I didn't even know he knew, so someone told him, that angers me a little, but it is what it is. He asked me what all was wrong with me... and see that messes me up. Everyone sees me as this diseased being it seems... Or that is how I am perceiving it.
Its stupid to let this bug me, but it does. I just cant get comfortable with it sometimes. My being diagnosed was never something I was searching for. It happened nearly by accident after a bad trip to the ER, over a shut down and a bad panic attack, that led to a referral, because they saw me as very depressed. So, maybe that alone has me defensive. I was never wanting to become labeled, and now I am.
I guess in some weird way, it makes me feel stupid, yet it answered a mass of situations from my earliest memories as a kid. Maybe also I'm upset because no one cared enough to help me as a kid. They just called me stubborn and beat the crap out of me. Who knows it might have given me a whole different perspective, or it might have made it worse.
I just need to let it go and I will eventually... but I also need to be able to handle it when I do get in a bad position. I think I am more upset with myself than that guy who smarted off.
Most the time I'm mr. chipper, but when this stuff grinds on my mind, it messes with me and I don't like those days much.
This right here is why I like this site. I cant at least let it out, or try and help someone else. Its not like that out there in the NT world.
try this retort (sarcasm) i bet your IQ is lower than a German shepherds !!!!
german shepherds have an IQ of 70 so they would be labeled retarded, i DONT agree they are very perceptive !!!!
where, and when, do I find a graceful exit and what then?
and sadly cretin whichis just thyroid deficiencyokayyyy, so check here: IQ Classifications - AssessmentPsychology.com
Quote: Mental deficiency used to be divided into the following sub-classifications, but these labels began to be abused by the public and are now largely obsolete: Borderline Deficiency (IQ 70-80), Moron (IQ 50-69), Imbecile (IQ 20-49) and Idiot (below 20). Mental deficiency is now generally called mental retardation.
So, you're right, "retarded" is 70, but if you go for 69, it's "moron"! LOL
That's what happens when you have a Friday beer with a psychology graduate!
okayyyy, so check here: IQ Classifications - AssessmentPsychology.com
Quote: Mental deficiency used to be divided into the following sub-classifications, but these labels began to be abused by the public and are now largely obsolete: Borderline Deficiency (IQ 70-80), Moron (IQ 50-69), Imbecile (IQ 20-49) and Idiot (below 20). Mental deficiency is now generally called mental retardation.
So, you're right, "retarded" is 70, but if you go for 69, it's "moron"! LOL
That's what happens when you have a Friday beer with a psychology graduate!
That's a good goal. You have incredible accomplishments to offer, and I hope you can craft something that you design, not accept the rules of others in this new venture.
I was lucky that I started working just as computers were taking off. No one had a degree in it then, it was all aptitude and willingness to try something new. I wound up not going back to college (burnout from doing too much the first time) and making something of a career in it. My side trips into something else always wound up with me back at computers... which is where I am now
But it suits me. Now I am leveraging these skills into my own freelance business, which will be even better for me.
Put all your skills together, take away the ones you don't like doing, and see what you have. I'll bet it's a skill set that fits something.