HughG
Active Member
Greetings.
This is a very confusing and frustrating enigma...
I've always been completely introverted and intellectual, and spending time in isolation is not usually a problem for me. However, seemingly endless days and hours upon hours of habitual deep thinking, writing & reading sometimes have a way of driving me into a DEEP depressive state. I want to make some friends and have a social life. Other than being around my immediate family, I'm almost always alone and spend my days in loneliness. Although I don't care anything about mainstream team sports, I do love the X-games and most individual skill sports (e.g., rock climbing, biking, skateboarding, surfing, hang-gliding, archery, lumberjacks, etc.). I love the outdoors, nature & animals. I love camping, canoeing, fishing, hiking, trekking, biking, and all things scientific. I love my work (graphic design). I love model trains, R/C cars, planes, drones & helicopters. I love entomology and catching and mounting insects. I love intellectually stimulating conversations about life, God and other things. I love learning about foreign cultures and eating exotic foods. I love joking and laughing 'til my stomach hurts. I love Marvel and sci-fi movies, watching The Weather Channel and studying weather phenomena. I love learning foreign languages, doing brain-teasers, playing word games, and learning difficult and rarely used words. And I actually love people too, but by the same token, I've learned over time that whenever I've let people into my world they've typically gotten frustrated with something about me and fizzled out of my life. I've been told, more times than I can count, that I'm too intellectual, too smart, too weird, too serious, too blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
Does this sound crazy? Am I alone in this?
Can anyone else identify with this?
Can anyone offer some helpful suggestions?
This is a very confusing and frustrating enigma...
I've always been completely introverted and intellectual, and spending time in isolation is not usually a problem for me. However, seemingly endless days and hours upon hours of habitual deep thinking, writing & reading sometimes have a way of driving me into a DEEP depressive state. I want to make some friends and have a social life. Other than being around my immediate family, I'm almost always alone and spend my days in loneliness. Although I don't care anything about mainstream team sports, I do love the X-games and most individual skill sports (e.g., rock climbing, biking, skateboarding, surfing, hang-gliding, archery, lumberjacks, etc.). I love the outdoors, nature & animals. I love camping, canoeing, fishing, hiking, trekking, biking, and all things scientific. I love my work (graphic design). I love model trains, R/C cars, planes, drones & helicopters. I love entomology and catching and mounting insects. I love intellectually stimulating conversations about life, God and other things. I love learning about foreign cultures and eating exotic foods. I love joking and laughing 'til my stomach hurts. I love Marvel and sci-fi movies, watching The Weather Channel and studying weather phenomena. I love learning foreign languages, doing brain-teasers, playing word games, and learning difficult and rarely used words. And I actually love people too, but by the same token, I've learned over time that whenever I've let people into my world they've typically gotten frustrated with something about me and fizzled out of my life. I've been told, more times than I can count, that I'm too intellectual, too smart, too weird, too serious, too blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
Does this sound crazy? Am I alone in this?
Can anyone else identify with this?
Can anyone offer some helpful suggestions?