Iamnotarabot
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Thinking that you are just a little meaningless dust in the cosmos, in a place crowded with billions of people ?
I feel like nothing matters.
I feel like nothing matters.
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My philosophy also.For me. the knowledge that we must die makes me think that everything is pointless. Then I remember that until this happens, I am alive and should try and enjoy life. I was born, I'm here, so now I've just got to get on with it.
Now i've started singing 'always look on the bright side of life 'it's the last scene from 'the life of Brian' .My philosophy also.
I may not like that I am on this planet.
Remember the old bumper sticker? Life's a bit** and then you die.
But, I'm here and look for the little pleasures that I can find along the way.
If you need to know about a cremation watch a Hindu burialThat is very troublesome. I used to be more upset by it, but now I feel ok with it. To coalesce into the whole heap is awful, but it's going to happen.
When I was young, this is grim, but I got a big book on what happens when we die. It was terrible. It went into detail, cremation, burial, rotting if you happen to die in a corn field and no one finds you, summer dying and winter dying......phhhh.
I made myself watch cremations on you tube. They don't show it. Just the containers and how it's done.
It's horrifying but there is a 100% chance that will happen.
When I got my brain around that fact, my tiny little speck-like nature quickly got itself into perspective. I also saw how brief we are here.
It's senseless, yes, but I look around and see beautiful sentient souls, all of whom are the "dying replacing the dead." (Augustine, COG). We all look so permanent! We all feel so permanent......
For me, it helps to keep my mortality front and centre. I don't know why that helps, but it does.
I always wonder "why am I here?", surely it's not just to exist for the purpose of making up the numbers in the world? OK I've done a lot of volunteer work, but some idiot from a job Agency once told me to my face that 24 years of voluntary work does not translate to REAL work experience! Eh?!
Like I applied to ASDA (Walmart to the Americans) yesterday, and I know for a fact I won't even get an interview because I had to declare that I have AS, I'm deaf and have spinal stenosis.
nothing does matter, that is why it is important to give your purpose to your life, think what makes you happy and go for that and try to enjoy what you can on the way
step 1 stop worrying that you don't have those thing society says you must have to be happy
to be happy you are not obliged:
- to have many friends
- have a high profile job
- have a trophy life (clothes, ,watches, gadgets, wife, car, house, holidays...)
take it from an old fart, chasing after other people's dreams will only result in a point when you look back at your life and wonder why you listened to everyone else telling you what you need to be happy and didn't just enjoy what was there
my goals are simple:
- have an interesting job
- try to be socially unencumbered, ie no social life wanted
- do things that make my wife happy
- find a home with a minimal commute but with maximum isolation
- enjoy my hobbies: quiet and not talking / listening to music / rpg games / photography and cycling