Guppyfry
Well-Known Member
I feel like I have not one single thing in common with the people around me, ESPECIALLY other women. I hardly ever talk to anyone, I feel that they live in a different universe that I do not understand. I work in a mostly male-dominated industry (Helicopter maintenance and operations). Most of the women here are office workers (like myself, but I deal with specific maintenance tracking and requirements). There seems to be an unwritten rule that 'girls' get each other and need to stick together. (How I hate being refered to as a 'girl' - so patronizing and demeaning if you are an adult woman).
I've been working here for over 10 years, young people come in, get married, have kids, I don't know any of this. I barely recognize them (one more reason I isolate myself, very embarassing to not recognize people you work with almost on a daily basis).
To tell the truth, I feel threatened by people's 'normal' life, because I so can not relate. It scares me that I have to interact with someone who did all the stuff I never did, and cannot imagine myself doing. I've no interest in what others like to talk about - kids, fashion, makeup, the latest movie heart-throb, shopping, etc. I notice with some people, when they do something, it's not about what they did, it is who said what, who sat where, who talked to whom - odd - as if that was the most important thing in the world.
I can act very normal, be assertive when required, work with others well, and with some people I feel very confident and natural and have fun bantering back and forth. I pass for NT well enough, functional enough to have been doing the same job for all these years whild I see others get hired then fired (or have their position "eliminated").
But seems that inside burns a fire of bewilderement. Parallel planes of existance that will never intersect.
I've been working here for over 10 years, young people come in, get married, have kids, I don't know any of this. I barely recognize them (one more reason I isolate myself, very embarassing to not recognize people you work with almost on a daily basis).
To tell the truth, I feel threatened by people's 'normal' life, because I so can not relate. It scares me that I have to interact with someone who did all the stuff I never did, and cannot imagine myself doing. I've no interest in what others like to talk about - kids, fashion, makeup, the latest movie heart-throb, shopping, etc. I notice with some people, when they do something, it's not about what they did, it is who said what, who sat where, who talked to whom - odd - as if that was the most important thing in the world.
I can act very normal, be assertive when required, work with others well, and with some people I feel very confident and natural and have fun bantering back and forth. I pass for NT well enough, functional enough to have been doing the same job for all these years whild I see others get hired then fired (or have their position "eliminated").
But seems that inside burns a fire of bewilderement. Parallel planes of existance that will never intersect.