AuBurney Tuckerson
~GigglesTheAutisticHyena~
My test is on the 28th, so I will head there after my college class (I luckily only have one class on Fridays). I know where the place is now, but I will still use Maps just to be safe. One thing worries me: What if he says I'm not autistic? During the intake appointment, I told him the signs I had and still have, growing up. I even showed him the purple gloves an occupational therapist used to calm me down as a child by rubbing my arm with those gloves on. I threw in my sensitive hearing as the major problem. I can list all of my signs:
Lack of social skills/trouble with people
Shimming/Self Stimulation (Shaking my foot, rocking back and forth, biting/chewing things (especially like wood chips, cardboard, or paper that smell/taste good, but I got this product called a Chew Stixx to keep me from chewing and cracking my pen tops), sticking my fingers in my ears after a loud noise hurts me, bobbing or shaking my head.)
Sensory Processing Disorder: Sensitivity to Light, Touch, Taste, Smell, and ESPECIALLY Sound
Close-mindedness
Monotone/Robotic voice (I have a YouTube channel, so if you watch my videos, you'll hear my voice in the guinea Piggie videos)
Specific and Strict/Limited Interests
OCD (I always counted in almost everything I did, and almost everything I do with my right hand has to be equal to my left hand, so I became ambidextrous on purpose to make my hands equal.)
Anger Issues
Depression
Eye Contact Troubles (My mother always nagged me about this one and said that those who can't look people in the eye are weak or have low self esteem. I'M NOT WEAK OR SCARED OF ANYONE.)
Grin or Laugh at inappropriate times
A bit paranoid and anxious (I panic a lot when I get lost while driving, can't complete something important, or lose something important.)
No common sense what so ever
Meltdowns (Loud noises torture the HELL out of me, and it leads to me screaming, hitting whatever's hurting my ears, banging my head, growling or snapping at whoever's hurting my ears, and crying when I'm alone or in too much overstimulation. Earmuffs I got from online didn't work at all, proving my mother right. Other times, I may have a meltdown if I get lost, lose something, or get stranded and start to panic and get angry. I've been known to get angry and hit devices because of certain games.)
Always stressed out
Difficulty understanding jokes, expressions, or puns
Lack of balance and uncoordinated
Speech delay as a toddler (I went through speech therapy at a private place, and that's why I speak so intelligently now and that is also why we were turned down when my mother tried to get me tested for autism as a child)
Uncomfortable in shoes (the weirdness in me won't allow me to wear shoes while walking on certain floors that either have paper or gum getting stuck to my shoes *shudders*, and the feeling of it is ubbareable, but I'm fine barefoot)
Strict Routine and Schedule in EVRYTHING
I think that's all I can remember or think of to name for now.. I'm worried he may not find anything, and I'll never know why I have the issues I do or WHY I'M SUFFERING FROM SENSITIVE HEARING! Just thinking about the loud noises that torture me every day just makes me want to bang my head against a wall now! After days of torture, nothing would feel better than a concussion.. I have been suffering sensitive hearing for 5 years now.. All these audiologists and ENTs say my hearing is fine, and I don't have Hyperacusis lie I thought I did. If it's not autism or sensory processing disorder, then my other reason I could've gotten it is because I'm CURSED.. Everything always goes wrong in my life. If anything was to ever go right for me, I'd be a miraclre that'll get me to actually believe that God doesn't hate me. (For those of uoi who believe in God cause I know some people don't) The world has always been against me, and everything good that SEEMED to happen always has a catch to where it turns into something bad. If I'm not diagnosed as autistic, then I was right about just being a dumb loser who can't do anything right and annoys people (or weirds them out) wherever she goes...
Lack of social skills/trouble with people
Shimming/Self Stimulation (Shaking my foot, rocking back and forth, biting/chewing things (especially like wood chips, cardboard, or paper that smell/taste good, but I got this product called a Chew Stixx to keep me from chewing and cracking my pen tops), sticking my fingers in my ears after a loud noise hurts me, bobbing or shaking my head.)
Sensory Processing Disorder: Sensitivity to Light, Touch, Taste, Smell, and ESPECIALLY Sound
Close-mindedness
Monotone/Robotic voice (I have a YouTube channel, so if you watch my videos, you'll hear my voice in the guinea Piggie videos)
Specific and Strict/Limited Interests
OCD (I always counted in almost everything I did, and almost everything I do with my right hand has to be equal to my left hand, so I became ambidextrous on purpose to make my hands equal.)
Anger Issues
Depression
Eye Contact Troubles (My mother always nagged me about this one and said that those who can't look people in the eye are weak or have low self esteem. I'M NOT WEAK OR SCARED OF ANYONE.)
Grin or Laugh at inappropriate times
A bit paranoid and anxious (I panic a lot when I get lost while driving, can't complete something important, or lose something important.)
No common sense what so ever
Meltdowns (Loud noises torture the HELL out of me, and it leads to me screaming, hitting whatever's hurting my ears, banging my head, growling or snapping at whoever's hurting my ears, and crying when I'm alone or in too much overstimulation. Earmuffs I got from online didn't work at all, proving my mother right. Other times, I may have a meltdown if I get lost, lose something, or get stranded and start to panic and get angry. I've been known to get angry and hit devices because of certain games.)
Always stressed out
Difficulty understanding jokes, expressions, or puns
Lack of balance and uncoordinated
Speech delay as a toddler (I went through speech therapy at a private place, and that's why I speak so intelligently now and that is also why we were turned down when my mother tried to get me tested for autism as a child)
Uncomfortable in shoes (the weirdness in me won't allow me to wear shoes while walking on certain floors that either have paper or gum getting stuck to my shoes *shudders*, and the feeling of it is ubbareable, but I'm fine barefoot)
Strict Routine and Schedule in EVRYTHING
I think that's all I can remember or think of to name for now.. I'm worried he may not find anything, and I'll never know why I have the issues I do or WHY I'M SUFFERING FROM SENSITIVE HEARING! Just thinking about the loud noises that torture me every day just makes me want to bang my head against a wall now! After days of torture, nothing would feel better than a concussion.. I have been suffering sensitive hearing for 5 years now.. All these audiologists and ENTs say my hearing is fine, and I don't have Hyperacusis lie I thought I did. If it's not autism or sensory processing disorder, then my other reason I could've gotten it is because I'm CURSED.. Everything always goes wrong in my life. If anything was to ever go right for me, I'd be a miraclre that'll get me to actually believe that God doesn't hate me. (For those of uoi who believe in God cause I know some people don't) The world has always been against me, and everything good that SEEMED to happen always has a catch to where it turns into something bad. If I'm not diagnosed as autistic, then I was right about just being a dumb loser who can't do anything right and annoys people (or weirds them out) wherever she goes...