DogwoodTree
Still here...
I'm tired of being the person no one wants to be around.
I'm tired of being the person where "Be authentic" and "Just be yourself" is bad advice.
I'm tired of being the person who ruins every potential friendship by my desire to be friends.
I'm tired of being the person whose kids are treated like weirdos because of my awkwardness, weirdness, and screwed-up-ness.
I'm tired of being such a burden to humanity...except that a true exit would be too destructive...so my goal is to be both present and invisible.
Invisibility is an art form. I'm very good at it. I've spent 4 years now trying to be more authentic with people, and screwed up dozens of relationships, and I'm done. I don't think people really mean it when they say they want people to be more authentic. A little more honest and humble, perhaps, but not truly open, not in a way that affects anyone else negatively. People don't want to be burdened with a person's reality if that reality is messy and stupid and awkward.
I'm tired of being the person where "Be authentic" and "Just be yourself" is bad advice.
I'm tired of being the person who ruins every potential friendship by my desire to be friends.
I'm tired of being the person whose kids are treated like weirdos because of my awkwardness, weirdness, and screwed-up-ness.
I'm tired of being such a burden to humanity...except that a true exit would be too destructive...so my goal is to be both present and invisible.
Invisibility is an art form. I'm very good at it. I've spent 4 years now trying to be more authentic with people, and screwed up dozens of relationships, and I'm done. I don't think people really mean it when they say they want people to be more authentic. A little more honest and humble, perhaps, but not truly open, not in a way that affects anyone else negatively. People don't want to be burdened with a person's reality if that reality is messy and stupid and awkward.
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