OrdinaryCitizen
Well-Known Member
You just described the girl of my dreams, i wish i could meet one in real life because this is how i am also...And if you thought this post was articulate, as @TheFreeCat said, if you had said this to me in person, I would have stuttered and babbled incoherently, taking long pauses to say umm, would lose my train of thought constantly, if I even had an answer at all.
Hiding my true self, trying to blend in and never talking about my problems with others was a name of the game for me as well.
I guess i am having internal battle right now trying to decide if its good thing that i discovered this community or not...
After i joined and read about other people problems i had so many flashbacks about my own past and i see that i am very troublesome person with a lot of conditions.
My social life among NTs was a nightmare so i secluded myself out of anything social completely and focused my life around other non social things.
So i got very depressed in past few days realizing all this. I know i got to sit down and reconsider all my life, this however is very emotionally involved task, and i hate emotional pain.
But if i run away now back in the world i created for myself, i'll feel better, but it wont last long since my life were already in dead end for years.
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