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Is this the way it really is? Yep!

I have never blogged before, but I am compelled to extend my thoughts, and feeling in this way at this moment. I have been spending a great deal of time trying to figure out if the way I view this world is actually reality, or if it is just my reality. I have been coming up against so many things in my life where people are telling me that I'm interpreting life situations wrong. I'm reading into so many of my experiences with a negative filter on them. I have been evaluating my perspective, experience, and peoples response to them. I am shifting my way of viewing the world. I am my biggest road block. I have been wondering if this an autistic thing, or something else?

I spend a lot of time wondering if I will ever be able to connect with the world. It hit me hard today that it is one of my greatest desires to connect with people. It is one of my greatest desires, but it has been the thing keeping people, success, and abundance just out of reach. I have been saying I want one thing, but behaving in a way to get the opposite. I have been looking for acceptance, and love from all the people around me, but I haven't been truly accepting, and loving of myself. I have had it pointed out to me that I need to embrace the moments I'm in as a divine present, enjoying and savoring every moment, because they are meant for me, and are completely mine. I had to take a hard look at the resistance I have been placing out in the world. That resistance is hurting me, and everything I am connected to. And that is a lot of stuff, because I am aware that I am connected to everyone, and everything.

xxxsdl

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midlife aspie
"I am aware that I am connected to everyone, and everything." The reason this is so is because we are all already a part of God. He is trying to get us to understand this. Just as we want all parts of our bodies to work together, thus God wants all of His parts to do the same, hence: "Love others as yourself", do not judge, make and keep peace, forgive and be forgiven, give and receive mercy. We are part of God, each of us, thus always what is done by or for us is done unto the Lord. When we don't love ourselves, it is hard to love others, thus our love for God is compromised. Hell is only possible where love is forgotten. As soon as love is remembered, Hell ends. Thus Hell is not eternal, but temporary, until such time as love enters. This is something that many don't seem to understand. The only real judgment is that which we impose on ourselves because our love is less than perfect. Those words of Jesus on the Mount were as much of a promise of God to us as they are concepts for us to live by, for how could we expect God to expect of us what He is not prepared to do? Just remember that God is love, and we should all rejoice in that love!
 
Totallysteff
Curious how 5 1/2 years can bring so much clarity, and then none at all. Thank you Kevin1968 for liking this so that I might read it again. A very good reminder of where I came from, and how different I am, but also how far I still have to go. Life is cool! I’m choosing to see life as a ride that I enjoy.
 
Kevin1968
Totallysteff said:
Curious how 5 1/2 years can bring so much clarity, and then none at all. Thank you Kevin1968 for liking this so that I might read it again. A very good reminder of where I came from, and how different I am, but also how far I still have to go. Life is cool! I’m choosing to see life as a ride that I enjoy.
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We (probably) only get one life, we might as well try to enjoy it (where possible anyway).
 

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