And now if you do, it might be because he said you would!
That...is true. The context was the doc asking me if I still have any suicidal urges, or if I think about suicide. I took a huge, reckless risk by being honest and telling her that I think about suicide every day. She merely said that was probably going to be the case for the rest of my life. So that's where that came from.
Let me ask you something though: did you regret your suicide attempt and have to "forgive" yourself for it as a result? A different doctor told me I'd have to "forgive" myself for attempting suicide, but that implies regret. Thing is: I don't regret it, at all. The only thing I regret is that my mechanic carried me naked and semi-conscious to the ambulance, and now things are awkward when I drop my car off for routine maintenance. It's like...do I send him a thank you card? I checked the Hallmark store and they seemed to be all out of "thank-you-for-carrying-me-bloody-and-naked-to-the-ambulance" cards. Go figure.
PM me if this feels like it's hijacking the thread. I sort of feel like it's kind of off-topic.