Hello,
Thank you for this space, and for supporting those in relationships with AS individuals.
I am NT with anxiety traits. I have an AS father and brother, both of whom were recently diagnosed. My question is about my ex. He is undiagnosed (we never talked about AS, although he often told me that he has "two sides" to him) and in mannerisms extremely similar to my brother and father.
I am still grieving the end of our 1.5 year relationship. My way of coping is to understand why he couldn't tell me what he needed. I tried everything: giving him space, being cheerful, anticipating his needs, and asking him what he needed. He was a closed book. He said he couldn't identify his emotions or tell me. He broke up with me by email and I responded kindly by email as well, to let him know that I was still open to a relationship but I didn't wish to control him. We haven't been in contact for a fortnight.
He included this paragraph in his email and didn't explain further:
"How long can you be expected to continue to pour your energy and hopes and dreams into someone who lacks the capacity to reciprocate? Who can't react in kind- if at all- to your happiness or smile or attempts to share your innermost self- your deepest fears, your most treasured hopes, the secrets of your soul? Who can't understand or share even your most basic, simple feelings, EVER? Who only reacts with logic, never with his heart? How can you ever share "love" with someone whose preoccupation with trains or space movies or sports or financial matters means more to them than you or your children ever will? Is it fair to expect that a cornerstone of your experience with your partner should have to be an ongoing inner dialogue with yourself, reminding yourself not to feel insulted, rejected, controlled, ignored, used or attacked- because he is somehow excused from intending to cause these very real emotions within you, by his "disability"?"
Please, can I have perspectives from AS individuals here to clarify what he is telling me? I never tried to change him and I accepted him as he is.
Thank you for this space, and for supporting those in relationships with AS individuals.
I am NT with anxiety traits. I have an AS father and brother, both of whom were recently diagnosed. My question is about my ex. He is undiagnosed (we never talked about AS, although he often told me that he has "two sides" to him) and in mannerisms extremely similar to my brother and father.
I am still grieving the end of our 1.5 year relationship. My way of coping is to understand why he couldn't tell me what he needed. I tried everything: giving him space, being cheerful, anticipating his needs, and asking him what he needed. He was a closed book. He said he couldn't identify his emotions or tell me. He broke up with me by email and I responded kindly by email as well, to let him know that I was still open to a relationship but I didn't wish to control him. We haven't been in contact for a fortnight.
He included this paragraph in his email and didn't explain further:
"How long can you be expected to continue to pour your energy and hopes and dreams into someone who lacks the capacity to reciprocate? Who can't react in kind- if at all- to your happiness or smile or attempts to share your innermost self- your deepest fears, your most treasured hopes, the secrets of your soul? Who can't understand or share even your most basic, simple feelings, EVER? Who only reacts with logic, never with his heart? How can you ever share "love" with someone whose preoccupation with trains or space movies or sports or financial matters means more to them than you or your children ever will? Is it fair to expect that a cornerstone of your experience with your partner should have to be an ongoing inner dialogue with yourself, reminding yourself not to feel insulted, rejected, controlled, ignored, used or attacked- because he is somehow excused from intending to cause these very real emotions within you, by his "disability"?"
Please, can I have perspectives from AS individuals here to clarify what he is telling me? I never tried to change him and I accepted him as he is.
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