Life has always been difficult, different problems at different ages.
I somehow thought it would work out ,I would have to with time.
It's all been difficult, from the early extreme anxiety to depression.
Now I'm a lot older I did hope that it would become my Life, I'd build some structure.
But no , it's all still a big mess and I'm disconnected from everything and everyone still.
My relationships are so distant that im not sure im even in them ,
I've had people I know die and I'm not sure I reacted
I know I do feel things because I'm so tormented by things every day .
The world to me is a street of passing strangers.
I somehow thought it would work out ,I would have to with time.
It's all been difficult, from the early extreme anxiety to depression.
Now I'm a lot older I did hope that it would become my Life, I'd build some structure.
But no , it's all still a big mess and I'm disconnected from everything and everyone still.
My relationships are so distant that im not sure im even in them ,
I've had people I know die and I'm not sure I reacted
I know I do feel things because I'm so tormented by things every day .
The world to me is a street of passing strangers.