This is something I’ve had to deal with since I was 17 (I am 32 now) and my depression was in its embryonic stage. I go through a year and I am still nowhere close to finding love despite desiring it so much. Even with COVID going on, I still tried to reach out socially through dating sites and the places that I go to in hopes of meeting like-minded people since people still socialize even in this pandemic but I don’t achieve any head way no matter how hard I try at being social. It’s like finding a relationship comes so easy to others while it’s a struggle just to even look into the doorway so to say. I get glimpses of what looks like hope but it will become like a vapor and disappear when I get close to it.
I was tempted to go down to the sports bar a while ago because it feels like the only way to meet a woman is to go to where alcohol and smoking is going on even though I don’t do either. I suppose I could force myself to like alcohol and maybe a woman would show interest in me? The thing is that I have tried bars before and they were unproductive endeavors. People, especially women, already had company with them and weren’t interested in talking to me so I am discouraged from trying again despite wanting to break out of the vicious cycle of loneliness I constantly go through.
I don’t know what to do with myself. Others tell me my constant fixation on wanting a girlfriend isn’t helping me and I need to change my focus because that will apparently increase my chances but I don’t understand how it would. If I am not looking for a relationship, how will I ever establish one? I also get reminders of my single hood since couples are practically wherever I go and it reinforces my feelings of loneliness.
I was tempted to go down to the sports bar a while ago because it feels like the only way to meet a woman is to go to where alcohol and smoking is going on even though I don’t do either. I suppose I could force myself to like alcohol and maybe a woman would show interest in me? The thing is that I have tried bars before and they were unproductive endeavors. People, especially women, already had company with them and weren’t interested in talking to me so I am discouraged from trying again despite wanting to break out of the vicious cycle of loneliness I constantly go through.
I don’t know what to do with myself. Others tell me my constant fixation on wanting a girlfriend isn’t helping me and I need to change my focus because that will apparently increase my chances but I don’t understand how it would. If I am not looking for a relationship, how will I ever establish one? I also get reminders of my single hood since couples are practically wherever I go and it reinforces my feelings of loneliness.