undertheradar
Active Member
So I have a question about masking... How do you tell the difference between the real you, and the masked you?
Some of these things are very certain of... Cuz I remember actively spending time and developing this outward persona
And I remember how I was before doing this
I've talked to a few people about this over the last year or two without even realizing what I was talking about
I remember telling a good friend that I wasn't really the extrovert that I appeared to be, that in fact, it was a very uncertain introvert
That you only see an extrovert because I know that I need to be one... He said he found that really hard to believe, I explained to him that that meant I had done a really good job becoming this person
That's absolutely exhausting... I don't even want to be an extrovert... Certainly there are many benefits
I know that by being an extrovert I can have many people who see as a friend
But I would be lying if I said I completely understood it... I mean
I mean a really interesting thing that I've been thinking about the last few years is that I don't deal with change particularly well... For instance I had a few friends when I was younger, for whatever reason this friendships stopped... But I remember I didn't understand what I'd done wrong, and I wanted to know how I could fix it and what I could have done better... And I would sit there and try to examine the situation and try to understand What had happened in a logical way... But as my wife appointed out when I chatted with her about it recently, there's no logic to it, these are people
So what I wondered is what part of the mask eventually becomes the person... Or is it never a person and always a mask?
Some of these things are very certain of... Cuz I remember actively spending time and developing this outward persona
And I remember how I was before doing this
I've talked to a few people about this over the last year or two without even realizing what I was talking about
I remember telling a good friend that I wasn't really the extrovert that I appeared to be, that in fact, it was a very uncertain introvert
That you only see an extrovert because I know that I need to be one... He said he found that really hard to believe, I explained to him that that meant I had done a really good job becoming this person
That's absolutely exhausting... I don't even want to be an extrovert... Certainly there are many benefits
I know that by being an extrovert I can have many people who see as a friend
But I would be lying if I said I completely understood it... I mean
I mean a really interesting thing that I've been thinking about the last few years is that I don't deal with change particularly well... For instance I had a few friends when I was younger, for whatever reason this friendships stopped... But I remember I didn't understand what I'd done wrong, and I wanted to know how I could fix it and what I could have done better... And I would sit there and try to examine the situation and try to understand What had happened in a logical way... But as my wife appointed out when I chatted with her about it recently, there's no logic to it, these are people
So what I wondered is what part of the mask eventually becomes the person... Or is it never a person and always a mask?