vergil96
Well-Known Member
I wonder what are your thoughts on that. There was this management class during which we gave oral presentations and got points for classroom participation. In the past, I would bother about seeming the right way in the class, but this time I got comfortable and did it like a total slob in my own mind. I didn't try to seem like I'm paying attention, doodled all the time and played with random things that I managed to get into my hands such as headphones or a rubber.
I've been told all the time that my ADHD is disturbing others, but nobody complained now, not even the teacher. I avoided presenting and when I did, I think I did it terribly, because I did what I used to get bad grades for - talked to walls instead of my audience, but hey, no people in sight - no social anxiety. What happened later was that the teacher really appreciated my engagement, it has never happened to me before, I got negative grades and harsh comments for whatever mistake I made out of fatigue, that I could just try harder.
What is the conclusion? If you lower your standards, you will get praised for trying, and if you try your best but aren't perfect, you will get criticised or even attacked? Maybe she was afraid to attack someone who shows obvious signs of autism such as not making eye contact and fidgeting as opposed to someone who masks but can't do so 100%, because, well, it's acting? It's not like I'm pretending the autism, though, that's what I'd normally do around friends and family. Let's keep in mind that this teacher must have been at least somewhat aware, because I have had some friends get angry at me for "ignoring" them.
So. Thoughts? Similar experiences? Very different?
I've been told all the time that my ADHD is disturbing others, but nobody complained now, not even the teacher. I avoided presenting and when I did, I think I did it terribly, because I did what I used to get bad grades for - talked to walls instead of my audience, but hey, no people in sight - no social anxiety. What happened later was that the teacher really appreciated my engagement, it has never happened to me before, I got negative grades and harsh comments for whatever mistake I made out of fatigue, that I could just try harder.
What is the conclusion? If you lower your standards, you will get praised for trying, and if you try your best but aren't perfect, you will get criticised or even attacked? Maybe she was afraid to attack someone who shows obvious signs of autism such as not making eye contact and fidgeting as opposed to someone who masks but can't do so 100%, because, well, it's acting? It's not like I'm pretending the autism, though, that's what I'd normally do around friends and family. Let's keep in mind that this teacher must have been at least somewhat aware, because I have had some friends get angry at me for "ignoring" them.
So. Thoughts? Similar experiences? Very different?