I was recently diagnosed with AS, and my marriage had fallen apart long ago. I am trying to hold on to everything I have but so far have fallen short to her expectations of me. I work, but do not have the ability to pay bills normally as I find them mundane and boring, my wife has done this for us for 17+ years. I do love her but get frustrated when she does not finish a conversation, she is tired all the time, she was recently put on a CPAP machine which I make sure she is wearing when she lays down. I crave affection and physical contact, but have a hard time with conversations if they do not allow me to express my views or beliefs. I have been called cold, mean, abusive, cruel, and everything else she could think of, yet I still love her. I have been told from her that I emulate what I see, hear, or read. This has caused more problems as I have been researching so many different websites on AS. When I think I have a good chance to make something work or to make her happy, I always feel left behind or frustrated from the lack of positive words from her, or a physical touch that says you did a good job.
For now this is too depressing I have to go and find something to do.
For now this is too depressing I have to go and find something to do.