A lot of you already know that I have been tapering off of Klonopin, which I've been on for six years (an extremely addictive and dangerous anti-anxiety drug) and I will be entirely done with it after about a week for two. Done forever, I don't want to ever touch it again.
Saying that in itself is hard for me, because it has become pat of "me" over the past several years. I was KNOWN for being on it in highschool. I reveled in that. I am in no way promoting pills of any kind, especially this one - it is probably the main reason I screwed up at two different colleges, probably the reason I dropped out of highschool - I didn't have panic attacks until I was on this pill, I only had anxiety before.
About 7 months after my mothers death when I was 16, I was put on this drug, and ever since, I have not dealt with anxiety any other way than to take pills. I was told by my doctor that being on that medicine could be the reason I'm entirely numb most of the time to any emotion. I don't feel anything. He said he had several patients who had to go into the hospital due to overwhelming emotion. I hope I'm simply not emotional and won't get like that. BUT, I DO experience anxiety!
WHAT am I going to do to control anxiety without Klonopin? People say deep-breathing but that has *never* worked for me. Ever. I don't know how to cope with or lower anxiety - before I was 16, I often had meltdowns due to anxiety (we didn't know I was Autistic. Didn't bode well.) If I didn't meltdown, I would either settle into a low little depressed mood, cause huge fights at school, and when I was younger and more functional, I would pray. That always helped me.
I don't want to see a therapist, not right now, and I have gotten some advice from the wonderful Arashi, and I would like anyone input on how to deal with strong anxiety after not feeling much of anything for 6 years. I think I was emotionally stunted at a young age (12) and that may have something to do with my increasing anxiety as I age.
My official diagnosis is: Aspergers, ADHD, OCD, and Discalulia.
Any advice would be great. =)
Dizzy.
Saying that in itself is hard for me, because it has become pat of "me" over the past several years. I was KNOWN for being on it in highschool. I reveled in that. I am in no way promoting pills of any kind, especially this one - it is probably the main reason I screwed up at two different colleges, probably the reason I dropped out of highschool - I didn't have panic attacks until I was on this pill, I only had anxiety before.
About 7 months after my mothers death when I was 16, I was put on this drug, and ever since, I have not dealt with anxiety any other way than to take pills. I was told by my doctor that being on that medicine could be the reason I'm entirely numb most of the time to any emotion. I don't feel anything. He said he had several patients who had to go into the hospital due to overwhelming emotion. I hope I'm simply not emotional and won't get like that. BUT, I DO experience anxiety!
WHAT am I going to do to control anxiety without Klonopin? People say deep-breathing but that has *never* worked for me. Ever. I don't know how to cope with or lower anxiety - before I was 16, I often had meltdowns due to anxiety (we didn't know I was Autistic. Didn't bode well.) If I didn't meltdown, I would either settle into a low little depressed mood, cause huge fights at school, and when I was younger and more functional, I would pray. That always helped me.
I don't want to see a therapist, not right now, and I have gotten some advice from the wonderful Arashi, and I would like anyone input on how to deal with strong anxiety after not feeling much of anything for 6 years. I think I was emotionally stunted at a young age (12) and that may have something to do with my increasing anxiety as I age.
My official diagnosis is: Aspergers, ADHD, OCD, and Discalulia.
Any advice would be great. =)
Dizzy.