I think your videos are awesome, toothless! Congrats on making them, and having the courage to share them with the world.
I can relate to your trouble with speaking -- I often have to prepare and memorize what I want to say because I can't think of words fast enough on the spot. I find it very frustrating. Do people interrupt you a lot, or ask you questions before you're done saying what you rehearsed?
I can also relate to what you said about your visual processing problems. I think I had a similar difficulty as a child. I mostly outgrew it in primary/elementary school, but I had some difficulty processing 2-D images until my late teens. Like you, I would see shapes and colors and lines but I couldn't put it together what I was looking at, or it would take ages. I had the most difficulty with line drawings and abstract/stylized drawings. I remember in 10th grade (year 10) in one of my classes we all got a handout with this picture:
....you're supposed to be able to see either an old woman or a young woman. I couldn't see any woman at all. (Now I can see both, though.)
I like stuffed animals, too. I used to have tons of them as a child, but I've only kept a small number of them as an adult. I still watch a lot of the same animated children's shows I did when I was a child, and I like some of the new ones, too. It's silly that some people say adults can't have toys or watch shows made for children. There's no harm in it for us and it doesn't affect anybody else.
i know their answer to be me would be-oh you arent LFA because you think its just a different way of living and you dont have to cope with severely challenging behavior every day
People saying that to you....what they're saying is just nonsense.
How you view your autism is separate from your functioning or what your behavior is like.
Frequent challenging behavior (the huge destructive meltdowns, where police can end up involved) isn't even just an LFA thing, either, so that's another way their argument doesn't make sense.