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Hello,
I've been wanting to post here for a while, but have yet to have the courage until now. I'm self diagnosed Aspergers, but hoping to get an official diagnosis. My therapist is on board, but cannot give me a diagnosis herself.
I know this is something that I've been living with my whole life. It wasn't until it was laid out for me, until I really realized that there was an explanation for how chaotic my life has always felt. I've been "living with Aspergers" for about three months now. It's been a relief almost, being aware that situations might not be what I've always believed them to be. It's also extremely nerve racking because not many people know and I feel like I'm living two lives. I have really bad sensory issues. I stress myself out way too much. I also have a ridiculous memory, so I basically torture myself with "what should have been" and I can't shut it off. It stops my creative processes and that throws my entire balance of life off. It makes it hard to have any followthrough with anything.
I have a few close friends, who in all honesty aren't actually that close with me anymore. Not to the point that I can make my Aspergers struggles a concern of theirs, although, they are two of the handful of people who do actually know..I also have a small group of people I hang out with at things like bon fires and small get togethers and normally I end up having some sort of anxiety problems when with them. They obviously do not know. It almost always results in a meltdown of some sort afterwards as well and it really doesn't take much for those to spark lately in general. I don't really talk to anyone about what's going other than my therapist, but my insurance is getting cut off on the 1st and I won't be able to go to therapy anymore until I get it straightened out.
She recommended to me that I maybe find some friends in a similar situation. She also said that making online friends would be a lot less pressure on me socially and it would be a good transition. I'm not antisocial. I'm actually quite talkative and friendly. I'm just socially awkward sometimes and it creates an extreme amount of anxiety on me for some reason. I don't really have anything in common with my friends anymore and I think that is a lot of the problem. There has to be someone on here on my level, right? It'd be nice to interact with someone who actually understands what I've been living with.
I was just wondering if maybe this would be a good place to start?
I've been wanting to post here for a while, but have yet to have the courage until now. I'm self diagnosed Aspergers, but hoping to get an official diagnosis. My therapist is on board, but cannot give me a diagnosis herself.
I know this is something that I've been living with my whole life. It wasn't until it was laid out for me, until I really realized that there was an explanation for how chaotic my life has always felt. I've been "living with Aspergers" for about three months now. It's been a relief almost, being aware that situations might not be what I've always believed them to be. It's also extremely nerve racking because not many people know and I feel like I'm living two lives. I have really bad sensory issues. I stress myself out way too much. I also have a ridiculous memory, so I basically torture myself with "what should have been" and I can't shut it off. It stops my creative processes and that throws my entire balance of life off. It makes it hard to have any followthrough with anything.
I have a few close friends, who in all honesty aren't actually that close with me anymore. Not to the point that I can make my Aspergers struggles a concern of theirs, although, they are two of the handful of people who do actually know..I also have a small group of people I hang out with at things like bon fires and small get togethers and normally I end up having some sort of anxiety problems when with them. They obviously do not know. It almost always results in a meltdown of some sort afterwards as well and it really doesn't take much for those to spark lately in general. I don't really talk to anyone about what's going other than my therapist, but my insurance is getting cut off on the 1st and I won't be able to go to therapy anymore until I get it straightened out.
She recommended to me that I maybe find some friends in a similar situation. She also said that making online friends would be a lot less pressure on me socially and it would be a good transition. I'm not antisocial. I'm actually quite talkative and friendly. I'm just socially awkward sometimes and it creates an extreme amount of anxiety on me for some reason. I don't really have anything in common with my friends anymore and I think that is a lot of the problem. There has to be someone on here on my level, right? It'd be nice to interact with someone who actually understands what I've been living with.
I was just wondering if maybe this would be a good place to start?
