Shaun-Junior Bishop
Well-Known Member
This may be a strange question to some and maybe not others but I've only come to terms, acceptance and acknowledgement of my autism within the last 3 years. Its feels like the more I look into autism and really start to understand it, I am noticing things about myself I didn't before. It feels like all my life I've been conditioned to not act the way I've wanted to and needed to and now i get urges to stim, make noises and the thought of me being autistic never leaves my mind. Everything i do, i doubt myself and i think am i making up stuff in my head and am I doing things I dont need to. I'm so scared to stim infront of anyone that when in public or even around my family I dont do it but on my own or walking yo the shop and back I tend to show so much more traits than i do normally. I just feel like it's a part of me I've hidden for so long and now i just want to Express myself but it makes me doubt if I'm just making it all up in my head. Does anyone feel this way or have any advice?