Hadassah
Well-Known Member
Okay, I?m pretty sure I have it.. I feel that some of my body parts are not normal looking and I always feel ugly :/ Sometimes I can?t even look into the mirror. I know you should just accept yourself, as you are, but it?s difficult, when you compare yourself to others. Also when no-one (man) has been there to tell you that you are beautiful, unless it?s your family (all females), lol. And I?ve had like no real permanent male-contact whatsoever. Even my stepdad, whom I?ve known for over 10 years doesn?t talk to me when we are under the same roof. My friends do tell me that I am beautiful and just fine, but hey, they?re my friends. Some men have said it, but how can they think that, when there are Barbie dolls around? Of course it helps (!!) and feels good, if they say that, but the feeling goes away and I go back to feeling ugly. I know I myself like people, who do look a bit different, have certain quirks about their looks, so to speak. It makes them interesting and beautiful in my eyes. But.. when it comes to myself, I?m ruthless. This is one of the reasons I haven?t been able to go out and date a lot, and also having AS (yay). Because even if I wouldn?t click with someone and it had nothing to do with me, I?d blame myself and feel it was due to my looks. I also constantly think about the way I look, checking from mirrors, if there?s one near. Even though I usually don?t like to do that, but in public it?s almost necessary. It might seem, that I?m vain because I do that, but it?s not that - I'm just afraid that I look abnormal in some way and people will treat me bad for that :/ This is a huge problem for me..
Here are the symptoms from Wikipedia, I can relate to all of them :/
Symptoms
Common symptoms of BDD include:
? Obsessive thoughts about (a) perceived appearance defect(s).
? Obsessive and compulsive behaviors related to (a) perceived appearance defect(s) (see section below).
? Major depressive disorder symptoms.
? Delusional thoughts and beliefs related to (a) perceived appearance defect(s).
? Social and family withdrawal, social phobia, loneliness and self-imposed social isolation.
? Suicidal ideation.
? Anxiety; possible panic attacks.
? Chronic low self-esteem.
? Feeling self-conscious in social environments; thinking that others notice and mock their perceived defect(s).
? Strong feelings of shame.
? Avoidant personality: avoiding leaving the home or only leaving the home at certain times.
? Dependent personality: dependence on others, such as a partner, friend or family.
? Inability to work or an inability to focus at work due to preoccupation with appearance
? Problems initiating and maintaining relationships (both intimate relationships and friendships).
? Repetitive behavior (such as constantly (and heavily) applying make-up; regularly checking appearance in mirrors).
? Seeing slightly varying image of self upon each instance of observing a mirror or reflective surface.
? Perfectionism (undergoing cosmetic surgery and behaviors such as excessive moisturizing and exercising with the aim to achieve an ideal body type and reduce anxiety).
? Note: any kind of body modification may change one's appearance. There are many types of body modification that do not include surgery/cosmetic surgery. Body modification (or related behavior) may seem compulsive, repetitive, or focused on one or more areas or features that the individual perceives to be defective.
Is there anyone else with the same difficulties? Please talk to me. Is there any help for this? :/
Here are the symptoms from Wikipedia, I can relate to all of them :/
Symptoms
Common symptoms of BDD include:
? Obsessive thoughts about (a) perceived appearance defect(s).
? Obsessive and compulsive behaviors related to (a) perceived appearance defect(s) (see section below).
? Major depressive disorder symptoms.
? Delusional thoughts and beliefs related to (a) perceived appearance defect(s).
? Social and family withdrawal, social phobia, loneliness and self-imposed social isolation.
? Suicidal ideation.
? Anxiety; possible panic attacks.
? Chronic low self-esteem.
? Feeling self-conscious in social environments; thinking that others notice and mock their perceived defect(s).
? Strong feelings of shame.
? Avoidant personality: avoiding leaving the home or only leaving the home at certain times.
? Dependent personality: dependence on others, such as a partner, friend or family.
? Inability to work or an inability to focus at work due to preoccupation with appearance
? Problems initiating and maintaining relationships (both intimate relationships and friendships).
? Repetitive behavior (such as constantly (and heavily) applying make-up; regularly checking appearance in mirrors).
? Seeing slightly varying image of self upon each instance of observing a mirror or reflective surface.
? Perfectionism (undergoing cosmetic surgery and behaviors such as excessive moisturizing and exercising with the aim to achieve an ideal body type and reduce anxiety).
? Note: any kind of body modification may change one's appearance. There are many types of body modification that do not include surgery/cosmetic surgery. Body modification (or related behavior) may seem compulsive, repetitive, or focused on one or more areas or features that the individual perceives to be defective.
Is there anyone else with the same difficulties? Please talk to me. Is there any help for this? :/
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