My dogs name is Keigan and I adopt his name as my screen name. Keigan is an Irish Water Spaniel, 8 years old, he early detects for cancer which makes him very unique.
My name is not important today, I'm 53 today and will be 54 in a few weeks.
Throughout my life I've always felt like I did not fit in, I now know why as I explore my DNA and I discover the spectrum.
I'm in a long distance and distant relationship with an NT Empathic Female, she has described me with some colorful metaphors that helped to initiate my discovery and self-diagnosis of being on the spectrum. Through our interactions it is clear that I do not feel "love" the same way that she does, and that is a bit of an upset for her. For myself, "love" is a learned behaviour of actions that when repeated do help others to be with me, they are most certainly not warm and fuzzy.
I've always had challenges in romantic relationships, the more I explore ASD and Alexithymia the better I understand the reasons why - also my DNA holds the to-date recognized markers that push the possibility along.
I also seem to attract the same type of NT Empathic Female and the results are always the same. Now I understand that their attraction is probably a "Cassandra syndrome" of believing that they can help me to feel more, only to quickly realize that I can never connect with them in a way that can meet their Empathic needs.
With this new understanding, it would be fascinating to date an asperian female for the understanding and acceptance, and ability/passion to explore our traits.
I am overly sensitive to noise unless it is pitch perfect like the symphony, I love to hear the movements of Bee'thovans 9th move around on the stage.
Crowds overwhelm me, so I avoid them. Eye contact is a practiced skill, I clearly need more practice.
Sex, all good, it is a great workout and I'm ready for a cheeseburger and milkshake afterwards.
I have many other traits, still understanding and digesting.
In many ways my emotions are indifferent, it is my actions and respect for others that provide me value and confidence,
My best aspie experience has been attending a support group every two weeks for the past few months. To actually see the traits in others is helping me to recognize the traits within myself. Also, to understang how much of a foundation of self-discipline based monitoring and execution that I have as coping skills. I clearly see the value of my coping skills, to help others be with me.
I embrace my self-diagnosis and my quirks, I celebrate self.
My name is not important today, I'm 53 today and will be 54 in a few weeks.
Throughout my life I've always felt like I did not fit in, I now know why as I explore my DNA and I discover the spectrum.
I'm in a long distance and distant relationship with an NT Empathic Female, she has described me with some colorful metaphors that helped to initiate my discovery and self-diagnosis of being on the spectrum. Through our interactions it is clear that I do not feel "love" the same way that she does, and that is a bit of an upset for her. For myself, "love" is a learned behaviour of actions that when repeated do help others to be with me, they are most certainly not warm and fuzzy.
I've always had challenges in romantic relationships, the more I explore ASD and Alexithymia the better I understand the reasons why - also my DNA holds the to-date recognized markers that push the possibility along.
I also seem to attract the same type of NT Empathic Female and the results are always the same. Now I understand that their attraction is probably a "Cassandra syndrome" of believing that they can help me to feel more, only to quickly realize that I can never connect with them in a way that can meet their Empathic needs.
With this new understanding, it would be fascinating to date an asperian female for the understanding and acceptance, and ability/passion to explore our traits.
I am overly sensitive to noise unless it is pitch perfect like the symphony, I love to hear the movements of Bee'thovans 9th move around on the stage.
Crowds overwhelm me, so I avoid them. Eye contact is a practiced skill, I clearly need more practice.
Sex, all good, it is a great workout and I'm ready for a cheeseburger and milkshake afterwards.
I have many other traits, still understanding and digesting.
In many ways my emotions are indifferent, it is my actions and respect for others that provide me value and confidence,
My best aspie experience has been attending a support group every two weeks for the past few months. To actually see the traits in others is helping me to recognize the traits within myself. Also, to understang how much of a foundation of self-discipline based monitoring and execution that I have as coping skills. I clearly see the value of my coping skills, to help others be with me.
I embrace my self-diagnosis and my quirks, I celebrate self.
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