So I wrote a blog entry for the first time yesterday and I feel terrible about it. Actually I feel terrible about everything. Depression has set in on the eve of going back to work after I wrote such a glowing review of my current position. How will I get through the day? I know you can call in sick for a depressive episode but my job has no back up for my position right now, they would be snowed. Can I get through this?
I'm not as shiny and happy as I can appear to be in the forums here or in real life with my flower imagery.
Trying to put an upswing on everything. In real life I'm pretty negative. My caretaker has to deal with it. I bring my mask down with her and only her. I feel sorry for her.
I'd like to try to keep writing a blog entry a day until it feels normal. Can my mood swings ever even out so that I'm not high off of one person's comment or low off another post's empty echo chamber.
I'm not as shiny and happy as I can appear to be in the forums here or in real life with my flower imagery.
Trying to put an upswing on everything. In real life I'm pretty negative. My caretaker has to deal with it. I bring my mask down with her and only her. I feel sorry for her.
I'd like to try to keep writing a blog entry a day until it feels normal. Can my mood swings ever even out so that I'm not high off of one person's comment or low off another post's empty echo chamber.