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My Light-Bulb Moment

I'm genuine, kind and honest. I'm lonely. People admire me but they don't always like me. I experience a lot of jealousy and confusion from people. I can't cope when people are not loyal.

I can see a lie a mile away. I know by your facial expression when you are real, or are manipulating me. It's nearly impossible for me to keep a friend, because true friends, even when they are sincere, still manage to break my heart .... Because they are only human beings.

I have a strong one-sided mind. I always demand perfection from others, but never from myself. This is because I never see myself as I am towards others.... I'm too busy surviving my life and surviving people's insincerity to observe my own.

I could go on, but I won't.... Just be aware of our mutual differences before you 'friend' me in Facebook. Can we handle eachother? I'll try to handle you... But if you find me just too much to handle please don't just remove yourself as a 'friend' on Facebook.

That will propel me into weeks of anxiety. I'll be likely to over-analyse everything I said or did to make you leave. But not before your exit causes me to absolutely & completely resent you for having the audacity to 'pick me up & put me down' like discarded milk in a shop.

So, if you need to end our friendship, it works better if I delete you first. I may seem eccentric, egotistical, narcissistic, or insane, but I'm not. I am quirky for one reason only: I have Asperger's Syndrome.

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I deleted my facebook long ago. Idk if it's me or aspies in general but I doubt I can have a good friend.
 

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