When I explain to people that I have Aspergers, the response can be somewhat polarised. I am met either with a knowing smile and a slow nod, (as if this is mere confirmation of a long suspected fact) or with utter consternation and denial. However, both camps can easily be united in disbelief when I mention the fact that I work in a school. With teenagers. Front of Class. As a cover teacher. And in my spare time, help out at my son's primary school and with the local Cubs and Scouts.
It's too noisy, surely? Too much social interaction? How can you empathise? Communicate? Too stressful? What? No timetable? Constant change? Different students and different subjects every lesson? Nobody on the Autistic spectrum would choose to do this!
I suppose it does seem strange, but let me explain: I like working with kids. I prefer to spend my time talking to kids than to adults. Kids make much more sense. They are honest (to a fault, like me). They prefer honesty, but if they do lie, then it can't be hidden (like me). They are full of wonder and curiosity (like me). Their potential knows no bounds. They are brave, have amazing resilience, humour and kindness. They do not judge. They can always change their minds. They don't dismiss anything as boring or valueless without trying it out. They feel everything keenly and react honestly, feeding back instantly. I could go on and on.
I love learning - It's essential to me, and I will never stop. To be around people who are as honest as me, as open as me, as full of wonder as me, as fallible as me, as energetic as me, as silly as me (as anyone who knows me and my penchant for giant inflatables can testify!), and as much fun as a barrel of puppies, too - well. It makes adults seem a stuffy lot..
Ah, but those of you who know my previous incarnation of 'Graphics Specialist' working in Environmental Engineering, will wonder why I haven't always worked with kids... Well, I worked with scientists then, and in my book, that's almost the same thing: Wonder... curiosity... lack of social sophistication... sound familiar?
Yes of course, it's exhausting, yes it can be frustrating, heartbreaking, infuriating, but at school and cubs, I can be myself with the kids, and I know where I stand with them. They don't placate, humiliate, undermine, dismiss. They praise when they are impressed, they criticize when they are not. It is clear to me when I have inspired them, when I have upset them, when I have amused them, when I've made a difference to them, and I collect the experiences eagerly. It is easier than being around adults, and I learn more from them than I can in adult company. I am learning about social interaction as they do - It is more inspiring than anything I have ever done, and when I see them growing up and learning how to manage in the world, it gives me hope for myself.
It's too noisy, surely? Too much social interaction? How can you empathise? Communicate? Too stressful? What? No timetable? Constant change? Different students and different subjects every lesson? Nobody on the Autistic spectrum would choose to do this!
I suppose it does seem strange, but let me explain: I like working with kids. I prefer to spend my time talking to kids than to adults. Kids make much more sense. They are honest (to a fault, like me). They prefer honesty, but if they do lie, then it can't be hidden (like me). They are full of wonder and curiosity (like me). Their potential knows no bounds. They are brave, have amazing resilience, humour and kindness. They do not judge. They can always change their minds. They don't dismiss anything as boring or valueless without trying it out. They feel everything keenly and react honestly, feeding back instantly. I could go on and on.
I love learning - It's essential to me, and I will never stop. To be around people who are as honest as me, as open as me, as full of wonder as me, as fallible as me, as energetic as me, as silly as me (as anyone who knows me and my penchant for giant inflatables can testify!), and as much fun as a barrel of puppies, too - well. It makes adults seem a stuffy lot..
Ah, but those of you who know my previous incarnation of 'Graphics Specialist' working in Environmental Engineering, will wonder why I haven't always worked with kids... Well, I worked with scientists then, and in my book, that's almost the same thing: Wonder... curiosity... lack of social sophistication... sound familiar?
Yes of course, it's exhausting, yes it can be frustrating, heartbreaking, infuriating, but at school and cubs, I can be myself with the kids, and I know where I stand with them. They don't placate, humiliate, undermine, dismiss. They praise when they are impressed, they criticize when they are not. It is clear to me when I have inspired them, when I have upset them, when I have amused them, when I've made a difference to them, and I collect the experiences eagerly. It is easier than being around adults, and I learn more from them than I can in adult company. I am learning about social interaction as they do - It is more inspiring than anything I have ever done, and when I see them growing up and learning how to manage in the world, it gives me hope for myself.
