livinggreen
Well-Known Member
Hello all. I am new to the forums and would be happy to have any and all input, comments and suggestions. I am in my early 40s and have had many great relationships with women over the years. However, the same issues seem to present themselves in all of my relationships - taking things personally, worrying and obsessing over things that are going well. Please let me know if you have encountered the same:
- I take everything personally, even things that I know are not personal. For example, if my girlfriend chooses to hang out with her friends one night when she knows I am free, I take this as a choice of them over me. Inside I know this is not the case, but I can't hide my disappointment and usually relay it in a very dumb way or a one-sided conversation where I say I don't know what is wrong. This becomes double for me if we have plans and plans are broken because of something else. I tend to feel unimportant at that time even when I know that I am not. Before I knew about AS it always came across as jealousy or insecurity, but I know it is partly AS that makes me feel like this. I have learned to keep it to a minimum, but it still gets the best of me.
- I also worry about everything. If I text my girlfriend and she doesn't respond in a reasonable amount of time, I start to worry. I used to worry about cheating, but that has gone away as I have learned to trust much more. However, now I worry about well being and it comes across as worrying about other things. Because of my distinct personality which makes me want to text people back right away, I find it hard to wrap my head around people being busy (movies, talking, working) and it drives me more crazy than anyone. I keep my phone so close just so I can get the text even when it is about virtually nothing.
- If my girlfriend is not "on" or "regular" I immediately think there is a problem with us. As if it's not possible to be annoyed or upset by other things, I determine that it must be us. This was further drilled into my brain when in my last relationship, my girlfriend always said nothing was wrong and then in the end said that something was always wrong and that she didn't know how to tell me. So now I have reinforced my already unrealistic belief that if my new girlfriend is not "on" then she has a problem with me that I don't know about.
There is really much more, but these seem to always come up. Again, I feel fortunate to be able to manage my mild Aspergers enough to have all of these opportunities in relationships over the years, but I would love to get a grasp on worrying over nothing and taking everything personally. I believe this is a common theme, but would like to hear some other experiences. Thanks.
- I take everything personally, even things that I know are not personal. For example, if my girlfriend chooses to hang out with her friends one night when she knows I am free, I take this as a choice of them over me. Inside I know this is not the case, but I can't hide my disappointment and usually relay it in a very dumb way or a one-sided conversation where I say I don't know what is wrong. This becomes double for me if we have plans and plans are broken because of something else. I tend to feel unimportant at that time even when I know that I am not. Before I knew about AS it always came across as jealousy or insecurity, but I know it is partly AS that makes me feel like this. I have learned to keep it to a minimum, but it still gets the best of me.
- I also worry about everything. If I text my girlfriend and she doesn't respond in a reasonable amount of time, I start to worry. I used to worry about cheating, but that has gone away as I have learned to trust much more. However, now I worry about well being and it comes across as worrying about other things. Because of my distinct personality which makes me want to text people back right away, I find it hard to wrap my head around people being busy (movies, talking, working) and it drives me more crazy than anyone. I keep my phone so close just so I can get the text even when it is about virtually nothing.
- If my girlfriend is not "on" or "regular" I immediately think there is a problem with us. As if it's not possible to be annoyed or upset by other things, I determine that it must be us. This was further drilled into my brain when in my last relationship, my girlfriend always said nothing was wrong and then in the end said that something was always wrong and that she didn't know how to tell me. So now I have reinforced my already unrealistic belief that if my new girlfriend is not "on" then she has a problem with me that I don't know about.
There is really much more, but these seem to always come up. Again, I feel fortunate to be able to manage my mild Aspergers enough to have all of these opportunities in relationships over the years, but I would love to get a grasp on worrying over nothing and taking everything personally. I believe this is a common theme, but would like to hear some other experiences. Thanks.