I am 46 and live in a land that speaks another language. I was social phobic in England, but found coping. I could take buses and trains and shop on my own, as long as I could wear my dark glasses and have something in my hand, which was either a book or my music. Now, however, things are vastly different. I have to take courage to walk 10 minutes away, to my chemist and can even see my home still. I wait til Mondays to go just across from me, to our bins, because the bar is closed that day. I am so social phobic it is bizarre. I can drive, but can't get a lisence. My day consists of getting through it and yet, I LIVE my life. My faith being one of Jehovah''s Witnesses, is the key for why I am living my life.
I see each thing I achieve that is nothing to another, as a goal reached.
If I start comparing myself to other women my age, I would crumble. I also see that even if I am getting older, doesn't have to mean I am old. Due to a health scare, I now use an exercise bike every day and have weights to do arm exercises and use YouTube to get fit and it is working. I purchased my weights on ebay and got a vibrant green colour lol
It is all about attitude. Oh I am a very negative person. Always believing the worst is going to happen to me, but one positive bounces into another one.
I had the chance of driving an automatic car and felt wonderful. All my social phobia disappeared, but horribly to by a good car, means a lot of money and I do not need a lisence. So, I can feel crushed often, but because I have hope due to believing that Hope, it keeps me from sinking.
I consider myself a survivor, not a victim.
I see each thing I achieve that is nothing to another, as a goal reached.
If I start comparing myself to other women my age, I would crumble. I also see that even if I am getting older, doesn't have to mean I am old. Due to a health scare, I now use an exercise bike every day and have weights to do arm exercises and use YouTube to get fit and it is working. I purchased my weights on ebay and got a vibrant green colour lol
It is all about attitude. Oh I am a very negative person. Always believing the worst is going to happen to me, but one positive bounces into another one.
I had the chance of driving an automatic car and felt wonderful. All my social phobia disappeared, but horribly to by a good car, means a lot of money and I do not need a lisence. So, I can feel crushed often, but because I have hope due to believing that Hope, it keeps me from sinking.
I consider myself a survivor, not a victim.