Life has not been kind to me, in fact, it's been the polar opposite. Where normal have ups and downs, all I've ever had were downs. People have good days and bad days, I only had bad days. People saw friendship and love, I've made nothing but enemies and had hatred on me.
For 20 years of my life now, this has been an unending, endlessly spinning vicious circle that has not stopped spinning and if I continue it will never stop spinning. A video game my stepfather made me play for him drove me to a breaking point and he chased me into my room and of course it wouldn't be a normal night for me if it didn't end with him stomping on my head on the floor!
I have seen no end in sight and the way things are going for me there will BE no end in sight. I am doomed to walk on nails for eternity and God (if he even exists) is not willing to make it stop!
I am very sorry for this everyone. You've all given me such great advice and have been such good friends to me, but the only way to pad my feet from the nails I walk on is to pull the trigger on my head. Thank you all for your caring support and I hope that you will grieve for me or at least remember me somehow in the future after I hang myself tomorrow. I know you guys definitely will, but as for my stepfather and now my own mother, they'd most likely clap for my death. The only person who would probably cry is my sister.
Thank you all again and Farewell Aeternia.
UberScout Feb 9 1996 - May 12 2017
"It was not the voice of the children and his parents who laughed at his face and mocked him; rather it may have been either God or Satan himself. Whoever it was, they felt nothing but what they already felt." - Anonymous.
R.I,P. God be with me.
For 20 years of my life now, this has been an unending, endlessly spinning vicious circle that has not stopped spinning and if I continue it will never stop spinning. A video game my stepfather made me play for him drove me to a breaking point and he chased me into my room and of course it wouldn't be a normal night for me if it didn't end with him stomping on my head on the floor!
I have seen no end in sight and the way things are going for me there will BE no end in sight. I am doomed to walk on nails for eternity and God (if he even exists) is not willing to make it stop!
I am very sorry for this everyone. You've all given me such great advice and have been such good friends to me, but the only way to pad my feet from the nails I walk on is to pull the trigger on my head. Thank you all for your caring support and I hope that you will grieve for me or at least remember me somehow in the future after I hang myself tomorrow. I know you guys definitely will, but as for my stepfather and now my own mother, they'd most likely clap for my death. The only person who would probably cry is my sister.
Thank you all again and Farewell Aeternia.
UberScout Feb 9 1996 - May 12 2017
"It was not the voice of the children and his parents who laughed at his face and mocked him; rather it may have been either God or Satan himself. Whoever it was, they felt nothing but what they already felt." - Anonymous.
R.I,P. God be with me.