Rune Fionn
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My mental health has been a big thing my whole life.
I was a koumpounophobic all the way from age 3 1/2 and have never known why.
My family has a strong history of schizophrenia and my father had a bad relationship with his mother as a result.
I am still ADD, was diagnosed very early.
Have seen a million therapists, psychologists, psychiatrists, been put in hospitals a lot.
My mother was scared of schizophrenia and though she pushed to have me for ethical reasons regretted my birth once she realized my dad's side had schizophrenia.
I knew I could inherit it early but just sort of embraced it.
I have felt like an alien my whole life, like an outsider looking in, and felt alienated too.
I struggle with small talk, social cues, and used to not understand logic in general..
I am extremely sensitive and get over attached, overly emotional.. but it has kind of calmed down
I have long struggled with depression and sometime after my parents left me on my grandmother's doorstep at 15 with no explanation, I developed bad anxiety.
I call them my birth family now..
My father, brother, and aunt dont act like they want me in their lives at all.
The way they treat me, I started to realize that even if I'm not autistic, I come across that way.
They don't understand me well, and so fear me, and punish me for causing them fear.
I don't know how to live in this world all that well and despite being considerably intelligent, despite having good intentions at heart, it has only served to make people madder at me.
They call me lazy when I dissociate from a world that overwhelms me.
When I learn through play.
When I research life skills.
When I'm struggling to piece myself back together every day, and that's a job inandof itself.
When they hypocritically discourage my successes.
They call me lucky and say I have stolen something from them.
They treat me like I'm such a burden.
It's hard to make and keep eye contact, I am weird about physical touch, overly sensitive to certain sounds. I like a few hugs and snuggles and sweet kisses but that's all..
Sex is stressful to me.
Even so, I am a new mother at 35.
I have a wonderful son, and my partner is good to me.
I live in Alabama.
I'm a huge nerd.
I adore the occult so much.
I am fascinated by Celtic culture.
I was a koumpounophobic all the way from age 3 1/2 and have never known why.
My family has a strong history of schizophrenia and my father had a bad relationship with his mother as a result.
I am still ADD, was diagnosed very early.
Have seen a million therapists, psychologists, psychiatrists, been put in hospitals a lot.
My mother was scared of schizophrenia and though she pushed to have me for ethical reasons regretted my birth once she realized my dad's side had schizophrenia.
I knew I could inherit it early but just sort of embraced it.
I have felt like an alien my whole life, like an outsider looking in, and felt alienated too.
I struggle with small talk, social cues, and used to not understand logic in general..
I am extremely sensitive and get over attached, overly emotional.. but it has kind of calmed down
I have long struggled with depression and sometime after my parents left me on my grandmother's doorstep at 15 with no explanation, I developed bad anxiety.
I call them my birth family now..
My father, brother, and aunt dont act like they want me in their lives at all.
The way they treat me, I started to realize that even if I'm not autistic, I come across that way.
They don't understand me well, and so fear me, and punish me for causing them fear.
I don't know how to live in this world all that well and despite being considerably intelligent, despite having good intentions at heart, it has only served to make people madder at me.
They call me lazy when I dissociate from a world that overwhelms me.
When I learn through play.
When I research life skills.
When I'm struggling to piece myself back together every day, and that's a job inandof itself.
When they hypocritically discourage my successes.
They call me lucky and say I have stolen something from them.
They treat me like I'm such a burden.
It's hard to make and keep eye contact, I am weird about physical touch, overly sensitive to certain sounds. I like a few hugs and snuggles and sweet kisses but that's all..
Sex is stressful to me.
Even so, I am a new mother at 35.
I have a wonderful son, and my partner is good to me.
I live in Alabama.
I'm a huge nerd.
I adore the occult so much.
I am fascinated by Celtic culture.
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