My parents were kind and loving and did what they thought was best for me, but there were misunderstandings, stress and pressure due to my undiagnosed Asperger's.
Well I was one of the small minority of children that was diagnosed with autism that became closer to the higher functioning end of the autistic spectrum in the 1970s. I will give some of the background again, please skip to the next paragraph which is more relevant to yourself if you wish. Back then there wasn't officially even an autistic spectrum and there was no such thing as Asperger's Syndrome, you were either autistic or you weren't, at the very most you could be said to have mild autism, but even this was rare because almost everyone who wasn't severely and blatantly autistic (what we'd now call on the lower functioning part of the autistic spectrum) wasn't diagnosed at all. I was only recognised because of my extremely slow speech development and also because both my brothers are on the very low functioning end of the autistic spectrum, this attracted high level expert attention, they were particularly fascinated because back then autism wasn't supposed to be inherited or genetic and all 3 of us having autism definitely didn't fit in with this belief so they wanted to confirm it. Eventually the highest expert in the field in the entire UK officially diagnosed all 3 of us during a day visit to the
Maudsley Hospital in London which I still remember today even though I was only about 7 or 8 years old, this was
Professor Michael Rutter (now known as Sir Professor Michael Rutter, knighted for his work with autistic children), he is still alive at 84 years of age at the time of writing. I clearly remember the CCTV camera that followed me around his room that fascinated me, I wanted to know how it worked and I tested to see if it was following my movements, it was, CCTV like this was very rare around 1977/8 and would have cost a fortune. Much more recently, about 3 or 4 years ago I was given a more up to date diagnosis of ASD and OCD.
Anyway my point is there was still misunderstandings, stress and pressure with my parents despite being diagnosed, so whether a diagnosis would have helped make things a lot better for you is debatable and a lot of it comes down to your particular parents.
The friction at home was especially bad with my Dad who was/is much less patient and understanding than my Mum, he seemed to be bitter that he had 3 young children that were all autistic. As young children we were all hyperactive with serious behaviour problems plus meltdowns, we saw "experts" including psychiatrists who offered advice, but real help was close to non existent, when we was very young we even all had epilepsy which is more common with autistic children.
Since I was the only one who started to improve closer towards the higher functioning end of the spectrum that really started to show from the age of about 5 or 6 when people started to better understand my speech, my Dad started clinging onto hope for me that I would be "normal". He treated me like a normal NT child and expected me to be a normal NT child with no patience and little tolerance when I simply wasn't, I was even sent to "normal school" against all expert advice where I had a awful time that included terrible bullying, especially when I reached senior school age when I even got suspended repeatedly after having meltdowns when I got bullied. I constantly and repeatedly disappointed my Dad as I got older. I used to dread him coming home from work and I used to love Saturdays when I was off school because he was a manager of a shop that opened on that day. My Mum was a lot more patient and understanding, although there was times that even she'd struggle to cope.
I didn't half have my fall outs with my Dad and it got even worse in my teenage years and looking back most were over autistic traits that really annoyed him, they often blew up into a bigger argument if I for instance answered him back or kept repeatedly doing it. For instance he'd complain about me raising the level of my voice, for not acting my age, for repeating and going on about things, for not being able to stop myself from talking when he was watching the TV, even stimming and so much more. Unfortunately this is still all too familiar even now with a so called "friend" and I'm 48 years old, I still get told that I'm doing autistic things on purpose. As I got older into my teenage years there was many scenes with me melting down and my mother trying to stop my Dad from having a go at me, sometimes he's then argue with my Mum and he's would walk out leaving a horrible atmosphere, but he'd always be back later or at the very latest the next day. When I was old enough to legally leave home I'd receive repeated threats of being forced to move out by my Dad, before this he'd threaten me with boarding school. What was even worse was after each fall out with my Dad he could sulk for literally a week before he'd start acting "normal" again, if I was lucky to go that long without another fall out. None of the fall outs were intentional and I tried my very best to avoid them.
I put up with living at home with my Dad until I was 30 years old when he put even more pressure on me to move out. I didn't move out earlier because I was very backward with life skills and still am, this most definitely showed because I fell flat on my face and my life turned really nasty once I moved out with no support network in place and I received a lot of abuse as a vulnerable adult, but that's a long story.
It wasn't that my Dad didn't care about me, he worked hard and did everything he could to provide, we did also have our good times. Unlike my Mum he had a bad upbringing himself and he just couldn't cope so easily, but he still amazingly helps to look after my 2 adult brothers who as I mentioned earlier are on the very low functioning part of the autistic spectrum (E.g. they can't count to 5) along with my mother and they're now worryingly both heading towards their late 70s (it frightens me that my brothers will be at the mercy of the state for their care with so much abuse in the system). My Dad has mellowed since I left home somewhat in his older age, I don't see him that much, but we get on much better at a distance in short spurts.