Thank you. All of you. For the past 4 years, I've been beating myself up mentally because my ex-girlfriends broke up with me. I've been devoting myself to try and move on without thinking of them, but sadly, I can't. I was in love with them so bad, I'd give anything to be with either one of them. They're both sisters. I've known them for 7 years. I loved them dearly, but they didn't feel the same way about me. They only thought of me as a good friend. Even though I'm autistic, and they're not, I honestly thought I could make a relationship work. But they had other plans. 4 years ago, I let my sense of humor get carried away, then they told me "That's it! We're not friends anymore! Stay away from me and my family!" It broke my heart so bad, I couldn't even smile for a month. They had forgiven me, but they declared "this doesn't change anything between us." Over the years I've been doing other things. Playing video games, riding my motorcycle or horse, going out shopping, even tried a couple of dating websites like eHarmony or Zoosk. Regardless of what I do, even now, all I can think about now, is letting those girls know how much pain I'm in because they hurt me. As much as I wanna hurt them twice as much for using me, I can't do it because my shrink say "it's a lost cause. They're not gonna care that you're hurting." I just got out of an appointment with my shrink who specializes with autistic people. He says I need to be on this site so I can learn to be with other people who are like me and maybe find a relationship. And so here I am. I'm hoping that any one of you can help me get over this ridiculous block that's preventing me from fully moving on.
