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For me the script is more about me thinking about and planning how I'm going to express myself clearly and concisely so that the person understands me and things will go smoother. It can often give me the confidence to face the situation. Conversations are unpredictable by nature, hence the anxiety, but knowing what you are going to say helps a lot. Even an answer to "how are you?" can be planned - you could give a generic "I'm fine" or you could say "not bad" or something like that. Such questions are not usually a problem for me, it's the unexpected question that throws me.
Y'alls libraries don't got self-checkout!? It's the reason I love the library!
Y'alls libraries don't got self-checkout!? It's the reason I love the library!
Sometimes I pin a note to my sleeve so that I will remember what
it is I need to be aware of while I'm there.
Im doing exposure therapy at the moment for a comorbid panic disorder. I have to go to places that scare me. I spent an hour in a busy pub by myself today, reading a novel. It felt like a major victory.
I have a lot of fear in my life and I think almost all of it in every situation traces back to having to interact with another person.
True! Exposure isn’t going to make a rave pleasant for meI think bright lights or loud sounds are always going to be painful for some people, others won't be able to be comfortable in certain places.
I have to make myself be concise, otherwise I ramble a lot and give too much detail, repeat/go on and on, overshare or say things I really shouldn't - too much info!So being concise isn't helping me with the general world.
I do understand what you mean, but I don't think that "I'm fine" has to be a lie. I take the question to be about my health, not my emotions. If I'm not sick, which is 99% or the time, I'll answer "I'm fine" and that will be a truthful answer and it doesn't feel like a lie. If I'm not feeling well, then I say "not too good", but then they want to know why or to express sympathy, and this is the kind of interaction I really want to avoid. I don't want to have to explain why I'm not feeling well.I want to reply, "Fine." when asked how I am but it feels like a lie and I feel twisted when I do it. To actually answer the question I would need to be honest if I didn't feel well or I might not know how I was feeling - I often don't know what the emotions are that I am having.
I think you just gave me an idea about using a script. I wonder if I could write one for the library. Their questions should be predictable. I could even print it on a card they don't know I am looking at and reading from. I have to think of what they will ask. It's hard for me when people ask how I am. They aren't really asking but I hate to lie. I have to lie because the interaction requires that I not really answer, it would make it awkward.
I am thinking now.
You sound lost. Are you lost and miss having her support you? If so, I get that, man.For a long time my girlfriend did things like that for me. She was so good at it.
I can relate quite a bit. I couldn't order food for myself until I was a teenager. I think I was 14 before I could handle going to the same fast food restaurant every day for lunch and ordering from the same register. Ordering from waitstaff was very hit or miss until 18. I couldn't send food back or correct a mistaken item until I went on an anti-depressant/beta blocker combo in November.
Some days are better than others.
I'm not particularly comfortable with some interactions but have an idea that some folk rarely mean what they say anyway and social rules dictate interaction will be at arms length in places like stores or libraries.
By that I mean if a cheery store assistant smiles at me and greets me with "How are you today?"
It isn't a literal question. They don't want anything from me other than a smile and a "great, thanks" and carry on with my business.
That's that 'arms-length' interaction dealt with. Finished. Over.
I like libraries. By definition they're quiet.
I'm left alone to get on with it.
Should I require the assistance of someone who works there,
I politely relate fact to them , they answer with fact in hushed tones.
They're not trying to make me feel good about my visit to chase sales (unlike a store)
Those that provide a service generally play a role.
If you can get an idea of what that role is, it might be easier to speculate how you'll be treated or what you may be asked.
You'll never know for sure until it happens but I've never yet had to deal with a gregarious, gossiping, animated, loud library assistant or a checkout clerk that whispers, half smiles and only relates facts.
I thought that was very funny.True! Exposure isn’t going to make a rave pleasant for me
I never knew that making scripts was an aspie/autistic thing until I got diagnosed. I just thought it was normal "thinking before you speak."
I'm living in Japan right now and I have to plan EVERYTHING I say because I often literally don't even know the right words so I have to piece together what I want from vocabulary I have and hope that it makes enough sense that I can get what I need.
Interestingly, in Japan it's considered bad manners to engage your customers at checkout. The idea is that everyone is busy and their personal lives are none of your business so don't hold them up with small talk. I bet you'd like it here ^^
But being here and being illiterate and only able to speak and understand about half of what goes on around me has taught me a few things. For one I am totally not afraid to write down notes of what I want to say to someone and if I get frustrated or hung up I will literally just hand them the paper. I call it (and this sounds terrible when you translate it to English) "White Privilege" which is where Japanese people automatically assume that because you're white you're a dumb foreigner and can't figure anything out on your own and they're just going to have to do it for you anyway. So it works out for me because even though I usually get hung up more because of the social anxiety than the language, I never have to explain that to anyone and they just automatically help.
I also do that thing where I get worked up for days over something and make it into a big deal in my head. I write these lists of things I want to do each day and I have this trick where if I don't finish the list, I recopy it onto the new day. That way I'm always aware if I keep missing something or putting it off. If it happens too many times in a row I break it down into smaller easier chunks.
For example in Japan you don't donate your used clothes, you sell them to "recycle" shops who sell them for money. It's really embarassing because, for example, I sold 3 sets of business outfits that I grew out of (Yup. 30'somethings grow out of their clothes. It's called getting fat) and had to wait for 10 minutes while they evaluated them. I was offered $0.90 and $0.20 for two pieces and zero for the rest. You're all, "Wow. I'm wearing rags that literally are worth less than rags."
But because I knew this was going to be stressful, I broke down selling my clothes into 1. just walking past the store. And after I did that 2. I sold my *business clothes* because I knew they would be the best received and be the least likely to get rejected or get told that I shouldn't sell garbage or whatever (how do I know what's valuable? I'm getting rid of it!). Now that I know what the process looks like and I've been successful once, 3. I'm ready to go back with the rest of the pile. This whole process has taken me a month because I need to recover between each episode.
So...maybe you could make yourself a list of what you have to do to successfully pick up your book? And then you could practice by doing the easy parts first and then working your way up to the scarier parts? And if you had your script, too, then you'd be all kinds of gold. Here! I'll write you a sample script!
GROMMET: Hi. I ordered a book?
LIBRARIAN: Oh, hi, sweetie! What was the title of that book you ordered?
GROMMET: [Say the title].
LIBRARIAN: Ok, let me get that for you, hun.
GROMMET: Thank you.
<Librarian returns with book. You stand there waiting.>
LIBRARIAN: Is there anything else I can help you with?
GROMMET: No, thank you. <hand her your library card>
LIBRARIAN: <Takes card. Swipes. Prints return receipts etc. Hands things to you> Ok, you're all set! Have a great day!
GROMMET: Thank you.
Variations: Librarian might not say "sweetie" and "hun" because she might not be from the American South. She might ask for the author instead of the title. She might not find the book. This is probably the worst variation because then you have to *do* something different.
Contingent plan:
...
LIBRARIAN: I'm sorry, hun, we don't have that book here. Are you sure you ordered it to this library?
GROMMET: No, I have to double check. Thank you for your time.
<You go home and congratulate yourself for doing a Hard Thing>
Because it is a hard thing to go out and do this stuff! And if no one can understand how hard you worked and cut you some slack for it, you have to do it yourself. My awesome therapist taught me that. She said that it's important to recognize your own accomplishments and reward yourself for doing them. She never told me I had to compare myself to other people. She was like, "look, cooking yourself food and eating three solids in a day is an accomplishment!" So give yourself credit!