In any event of something happening in my life that would be considered devastating, heartbreaking, or bad news breaking, I notice that the people in my life expect me to feel a certain way. A death in the family is the best example I can think of right now, but this happens with many different occasions. I can remember when I lost someone close to me, and it has happened a few times. I accept it and move on quickly. But then I start getting the how are you or are you okays like they have their minds made up already that I'm sad or angry. I guess understandable since the majority of people's reaction to deth would be this way. But then when I say yea I'm good I get that look or that feeling like they don't quite believe you, they think your hiding your feelings or not confronting them. This is when it becomes difficult for me because now I feel like I have to change or support my behavior. It's like there looking at me with sympathy because they think I'm probably sad, so thy treat me like I'm sad and look at me like I'm sad because they made up their minds that I should be sad. So then I either fold and play the part or end up sad and angry not because of the death but because of the way there assuming how I should be feeling and are treating me according to what they think I should be like at that time.
I know this seems rantful but it's the only way I can explain it. This happens all the time on small scales as well as large. It's like people dont wanna believe that I can accept that these things happen and move on. These deaths in my family happened many years ago and is not a current situation. I'm just illustrating the social element involved because it is difficult when so often instead of people looking at what you are right now their looking at what they think your supposed to be. It kind of sucks when time spent battling that false evaluation could be spent more productively. So I'm curious if anyone knows what I'm talking about and if so any experiences that you might share on the subject.
I know this seems rantful but it's the only way I can explain it. This happens all the time on small scales as well as large. It's like people dont wanna believe that I can accept that these things happen and move on. These deaths in my family happened many years ago and is not a current situation. I'm just illustrating the social element involved because it is difficult when so often instead of people looking at what you are right now their looking at what they think your supposed to be. It kind of sucks when time spent battling that false evaluation could be spent more productively. So I'm curious if anyone knows what I'm talking about and if so any experiences that you might share on the subject.