For an Aspie female who isn't even sure she is Aspie and doesn't display many obvious symptoms and could read body language and all that, I hardly had any friends at high school. At ages 13-14 I had no friends at all, apart from a few one-off interactions with classmates. So I had to go at it alone.
But I think that a lot of it was my fault, because I didn't make much of an effort to be interested in the things other girls were interested in, and I think that if I did then I might have had a few friends I could actually call friends.
I liked musical instruments but when I hung out with other girls who liked musical instruments I found they were much more intelligent than me and I didn't really fit in with them.
The sort of girls I wanted to hang about with were the average or below average underachievers who didn't really like any specific subject, but obviously they liked fashion and make-up - something I wasn't interested in. But I should have made more of an effort to be into that kind of thing. I was into stupid things like lions. What teenage girl is into lions? I loved the Lion King and always drew lions. Otherwise I didn't really have any interests.
If only I could go back and be interested in fashion and make-up. All I did was wear plain boys clothes, looked lost in clothes stores, and didn't put any make-up on or shave my legs. No wonder nobody liked me.
Being an adult is so much easier, because you can fit in no matter what interests you have. As a teenager I used to listen to 70s music even though it was the 2000s, and all my peers listened to 2000s pop music. Now everyone I know has their own tastes in music, even my same age peers listen to 70s music.
But when I was a teenager I was like a stubborn old woman who wouldn't listen to my mother who was just giving me useful tips on how to fit in and make friends. Instead I told her to stop criticising me.
If only I listened. I really hate my stupid 14-year-old self. I was such a dork.
But I think that a lot of it was my fault, because I didn't make much of an effort to be interested in the things other girls were interested in, and I think that if I did then I might have had a few friends I could actually call friends.
I liked musical instruments but when I hung out with other girls who liked musical instruments I found they were much more intelligent than me and I didn't really fit in with them.
The sort of girls I wanted to hang about with were the average or below average underachievers who didn't really like any specific subject, but obviously they liked fashion and make-up - something I wasn't interested in. But I should have made more of an effort to be into that kind of thing. I was into stupid things like lions. What teenage girl is into lions? I loved the Lion King and always drew lions. Otherwise I didn't really have any interests.
If only I could go back and be interested in fashion and make-up. All I did was wear plain boys clothes, looked lost in clothes stores, and didn't put any make-up on or shave my legs. No wonder nobody liked me.
Being an adult is so much easier, because you can fit in no matter what interests you have. As a teenager I used to listen to 70s music even though it was the 2000s, and all my peers listened to 2000s pop music. Now everyone I know has their own tastes in music, even my same age peers listen to 70s music.
But when I was a teenager I was like a stubborn old woman who wouldn't listen to my mother who was just giving me useful tips on how to fit in and make friends. Instead I told her to stop criticising me.
If only I listened. I really hate my stupid 14-year-old self. I was such a dork.